Month: July 2022

“It’s Got to Hurt if it’s to heal OR Raw

I have known this movie quote for almost my entire life and I used it all of the time when I was working out at Barwis but I am having a really difficult time accepting this right now!:

And ‘hurt’ it does! So much so that as I was listening to my morning prayers, (it was afternoon by the time I listened to them) and all I could do is sit there with my eyes closed and tears streamed down my cheeks out of the sides of my eyes.

I was crying because even though they are healing, and the dead skin and scabs are gone, My feet are raw. I told my Mom as she was washing my feet this morning that the drips of water were hurting. I really hate that it takes so long for my body to heal!

I Couldn’t See It!

Well, today is the day. I thought I had turned a corner a while ago but the pain persists but it’s not like the pain has stopped because it’s still pretty painful but today, The dead skin fell off.

Even though it has been painful to look at all of the pictures my Mom has sent to me, I had to stare at those skin pictures for a long time!!! It looks so disgusting with all that skin that needed to come off but they told us at the dermatologist office, as well as at the ER, NOT to pick!

Oh, I am a picker! I learned from the best! All of my older brothers are pickers and my Dad was too! That’s where we got it from! The sores have been so painful that I can’t even think about picking them! They still are painful but they look a whole lot better without all the peeling skin around it.

My Mom said they would eventually be just pink circles but I didn’t believe her, I couldn’t see it. I told her that today and she said in response, “I could!” It is going to take a lot longer to be totally done but I’m kind of encouraged by this progress but I couldn’t see it before.

Rando Tune #16

This song is completely because of Sean. He texted me just:


I obliged and this was his response:


I have always loved that song especially when it was in the final episode of Zoey 101 but I think I’ll like this response even better because I have a core memory of showing this to Sean on my computer:


And here is the jam:

NOT in this Regard

It’s been five years since I had my second knee surgery. Since then, I have not so lovingly referred to my right leg as my, “Poop Leg/Knee/Side.”

It has hurt me terribly since I had surgery in 2017 but, now, it’s a little different. The sore on my left foot is bigger than the sore on my right foot. My left side is the side that is killing me! It hurts like the dickens!

I think that my right leg and my knee understand that this is not the time to be acting up because I am dealing with major pain right now! So, it seems that my right knee is behaving at this point. Maybe tit feels badly for me because I’m in so much pain!

I can’t even see because this pain is so much! So, my right side is my ‘poop side’ but not in this regard. My left leg is killing me like the dickens!!!

July 2022 Faves

I am reminded of this time me and Sean went to the Plymouth (some kind of fair) with my cousinT Shannon and she snapped this picture from her apartment stairs:

I am not sure why I was driving my Parents’ car but look at me acting like I own it! That is something I do I guess!:

I don’t own that car either! I don’t even drive anymore. But these are the songs I am thinking about because I used to drive that white Blazer around in that picture, Sean is in the backseat and his car seat. This is what we were listening to: