Today marks 21 years and two months to the day from when I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. I saw this meme yesterday on Facebook and I figured I would share it here because that is what I am going to talk about:
When I first saw that meme, I thought that it did not look as painful as nerve pain actually is!!! I say that because that is what I am dealing with right now.
I remember probably two years after I was diagnosed and I was already on Canadian crutches that my brother asked me once “What hurts?” And I remember we were seated at our Parents’ table at their house and I looked at him and said, “Just my nerves.” And he kind of nodded and accepted my answer. I think I was drinking something because I took a drink, swallowed and added, “There are hundreds of nerves in every inch of my body!”
I like these following three memes better because they show how painful it actually is!:
Because, it’s painful. Almost unbearable. Don’t forget that I likened my pain to Silas from The DaVinci Code hurting himself:
I wrote about Silas on February 1st of this year. That’s when I first started experiencing excruciating nerve pain in my right thigh. It woke me up from a dead sleep and felt like a screwdriver being shoved into my thigh all the way to the bone!
But in the past month, it has changed from a barbed wire cutting into my skin to a tight strap around my thigh. Now, I have the blackest bruise you can have on the entirety of the outside of my thigh!
It’s the darkest bruise that hurts to the touch. My mom was adjusting my compression socks and she kind of pinched the outside of the sock to pull it up and it immediately resulted in tears springing to my eyes because it hurt so much!
Last night, I cried myself to sleep and I didn’t even know I was doing that until I had to flip my pillow over because it was wet. I was thinking about how long I will have to bear this pain. It seems like it will be a long time but I am hopeful for this at the precipice of MS Awareness Month:
