Tiring

Today, as I sat with my hands balled into fists on either side of on my waist and my leg outstretched for my Mom to put the patches on my knee for my tens unit, I mumbled something just barely audible. I was staring off into space and trying to get the strength I needed to continue the day. My Mom asked me to say it again and I did.

I told her that, “It is tiring to live in this body.” I continued staring off into space as she told me, “I know. I am sorry.” I think it was the rain throughout the night that is making me feel awful, but I DO feel awful! I just sigh and hope that tomorrow is better but I already know that is NOT likely.