Well, today has arrived. I was both dreading it and cannot believe that this day is here
20 years.
Two decades.
Last night, I shook my hands by twisting my wrists and told my Mom verbatim what the doctor said to me 20 years ago today. She remembers that day and what the doctor said. I also told her that my life changed forever that day and back then, I did not know how much it would change but it is aWHOLE lot!
I am not going to cry today though, it is a dull ache and it’s quite sad that I have had MS for so long. It is what it is. I never liked that saying but the definition and dictionary.com was fitting:
I’ve also been listening to Third Eye Blind lately and this song was my graduation song from 20 years ago. Even though it is about something completely different, these lyrics spoke to me:
I KNOW that I can’t take it anymore but the sad reality is that I have to! I am beyond frustrated but I do just have to accept it. It is what it is.