I woke up this morning and called my Mom. As I waited for assistance to get out, I checked my Twitter feed and saw a tweet from someone I just recently followed. It said, in part, “Grey sky morning.” OF COURSE I thought of this song and of better, more able-bodied days. They opened for up Third Eye Blind the summer after my senior year.
Also, I have to find out how I can watch this show in this video. Sean got me out of bed.
Tomorrow is Sean’s birthday. We will celebrate with dinner on Sunday. I can’t stop thinking about the fact that I went into labor at about one or two in the morning just after Halloween. My Nom ended up driving me to the hospital because I was at her house when I realized that something was terribly wrong.. She told me to call the hospital I was set to give birth but when I did, they told me that I needed to go downtown to the main hospital because the place that I was supposed to give birth was not equipped with an NNICU in case my baby needed to be delivered.
I did just that and once I got to the hospital and was admitted, the doctor hooked me up to a prenatal monitor because since I had MS, I was a high-risk pregnancy.. I spent November 1st pretty much incoherent. A nurse came in periodically to check my vitals and she took one look at me and asked me if I knew where I was and what day it was. I told her that I was in the hospital and it wasHalloween. I said it was Halloween because that was when I declared that I could NOT carry this baby anymore!
The doctor came in to see me during rounds in the morning on the 2nd (Sean’s birthday). Because I have been in and out of sleep is I try recover from/deal with this rain and cold, I’m reminded of that day 18 years ago. It’s hard to believe that it really was 18 years ago now! I never thought that I would be as disabled as I am now but this is where I am.