I am sitting in my chair, listening to Gavin DeGraw, and trying to find balance. I can’t really find it today. I think I’m really bummed out because I have the MOST vivid memories hearing these songs! They remind me of living in my apartments! I was more, “able” back then. I guess I’m just really bummed that I am NOT that way anymore! I guess it’s like those Memes you see where they say that you wish you were as, “fat” as you were 20 years ago because you really weren’t, “fat” at all back then.
I am just wishing today that I was as, “disabled” as I was back then, 12 or 13 years ago. I was still walking on crutches and driving back then. Progression was slow and my knee didn’t hurt like it does all day, every day now! I think about that school has to be starting now. This is my third school year of NOT teaching. I think that I am thinking about that and it is pretty much unbearable, at least it is today.
Memories of these songs go from my apartments to working out at Barwis with Jesse and/or Adam. I hope to get back there one day but I can’t really see it. My knee hurts so much! It’s been almost 3 years since my injury and subsequent surgery and my body just doesn’t seem to want to bounce back from it.