3.22.16 Aware

When I laid on the table at ATI, my legs were extremely tight.  I laid there and closed my eyes trying to will my legs to loosen up.  My legs were so tight, I could feel them shaking.  It almost felt like a shiver.  As if I was shivering inside but I wasn’t cold.  It frustrated me and I tried to will my legs to chill out even more.

Luba was having a hard time with my right leg.  She told me that she could feel the tightness in my legs and asked what was going on.  I kind of shrugged and blamed the weather or something.  She continued to work and told me the importance of becoming aware of things that were bothering me.  She said, “that when I become aware, I can start releasing what is bothering me.”

I took what she said to heart and started searching my soul as to what was going on.   I would like to say I figured out what it was that was bothering me and my legs loosened right up.  That is NOT the case!  The stim helped my leg to relax and I was tired.  I fell asleep on the way home and when my Mom woke me up, I was completely disoriented.  My legs were tight again as I tried to fall asleep that night.