I should be just about ready to start working out at Barwis right now. I did not go to Barwis because of all of the snow.
Sean and I had snow days today and will have a snow day tomorrow too. I woke up this morning and got out of bed and this was my thought for the day. I have been thinking about what it said all day so far…
Hope anticipates. I’ve got that one down. I have been hoping since I came to Barwis about 6 months ago. I was hoping before I came to Barwis but I didn’t know how my hope was going to come to fruition. I didn’t know that I could hope for my legs to work once the ability was lost. My hope has been renewed now. After coming to Barwis I KNOW that I CAN get my ability to walk back and I WILL. It’s just a matter of time.
Faith believes. I’ve got that one down too. I had total and complete faith in Jesse when he was working with me and now I have total and complete faith in Phil. They know what they are doing. I was reminded of Parker in the beginning of coming to Barwis. Jesse would get the same look on his face as Parker did, the same look as Phil does now too. They get this far off look on their faces as they are feeling for particular muscles in my legs.
It’s the patience that I DO NOT have! I WANT to be walking yesterday! Or last week. Or last month. Or 5 months ago. I feel that I am NEVER going to get my ability to walk back unless I “quietly wait” but I am SCREAMING in my head. I WANT to walk. I’m WORKING to walk. Why isn’t it happening RIGHT NOW?! I have to wait for it. And waiting is hard.