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I have been trying to wrap my head around this since my last appointment in March. I have been thinking about this and I clearly remember absolutely LOVING making my schedules in college! I remember that on ‘schedule release day,’ I used to grab three on my way out of the building! One for my book bag, one for my car, and one for my house (my Parents’ house).

I always thought of it as a puzzle! Each piece was a class that I needed to take to get my degree. It was a game to me and I loved it!

I graduated with my masters degree in 2010, that was a long time ago!!! But little did know that I would be doing that, making schedules for the rest of my life!!!

That is exactly what I do now! On April 1, I made my neurology appointment for August. That is a virtual appointment on May 1, I need to make my optometry appointment as well as my mammogram and I think that’s it for the year! Well, my internist may want to see me again this year.

This is so much! And that is why I’m still trying to wrap my head around it! I don’t think that it’s going very well at all!!!

I made an executive decision yesterday, I finished my vanilla bean chapstick and then started a brand new vanilla bean chapstick. Pillaging, I wore my hat the entire time! It’s not spring yet!

I’m comfortable with wearing vanilla bean until April 9 when I go to the doctor. We will see what the temperature is then!

But this was the very first time in my life that I could NOT pull off the seal to the tube of chapstick. I had to ask my Mom for help. That was really stinky and I’m sure other things will be happening soon because hand control is a super big issue these days!

I pillaged today, in silence, for a third time. I did not spill any pills again. Looks like, Three’s a charm!

I am really digging this Lenten silence that I have adopted!

I went to the doctor today to get weighed, to get annual bloodwork, to get a new prescription for compression socks, and to ask how the measles outbreak affects me.

I did that. But I think the most concerning thing was my weight. In the past six months, I have lost 23 pounds. Wait. What?! I am currently 1.6 pounds lighter than I was when I was 18 at the appointment just before I found out that I was pregnant with Sean.

There might be something really wrong with me and she tested my thyroid. I have family members who have thyroid problems so maybe that’s it. I think that having MS for 24 years is taking its toll. I am concerned. So very concerned… I see her again in a month to check my weight further.

Today, we had an encore of my movie we saw a few days ago but I can’t post a link to the trailer. (I will write more about that in the coming days). The movie is The Magic of Ordinary Days.

My Mom asked if I minded seeing that movie again because she really dug it! I didn’t mind at all! I’ve had a crush on Skeet Ulriche since The Craft.

And I told my Mom that, “Of course I don’t mind! Skeet has Matthew Stafford cheekbones!” Because he does!

it has been 12 days since I left my house and I went to the dentist. It’s been 12 days since the Westland fire department had to assist me because I got stuck on the ramp getting into the van.

I have been feeling terrible since I got home, I was concerned that this terrible feeling was my ‘New Normal,’ but I don’t think that’s the case given how I feel today. I am saying that cautiously, but I do feel a little better than I have been feeling since my meet up with Dave and Sean from the Westland fire department.

It is so startling how long it takes me to wake up these days!!! “Go Time” is March 19 so that’s kind of coming up quickly given that a ‘weekend recovery’ has turned into a ‘12 day recovery.”

That’s not sustainable at all but I have two different doctor appointments and a haircut this month. There will be no snow on the ground so that’s good.

For my two doctors appointments, I am going to see my internist, which is in the same building that I used to take Sean to see the pediatrician and my other appointment is in Dearborn as well where I used to go to see my pediatrician, so I’m familiar with both places and I have been getting my hair cut and eyebrows waxed at the same place since I was 17.

This morning, when I originally opened my eyes, I could feel that my hips kind of were hurting a little bit. Both of them.

That is definitely not a good sign to wake up to! I put some prayers on my phone, and then I laid there for a moment. But then I had to sit up! I had to grit my teeth a little bit and I moaned but I was able to get into a sitting position.

But then my Mom came in to help me out of bed. Nowadays, every single day is difficult getting out of bed. And I have to be gotten out of bed now!

As my Mom was getting me out of bed, tears started pouring out of my eyes. It was sloppy all over my cheeks and I hate waking up like this! I have no control over this!

Once I got into my chair and reclined all the way back to slide into place so that I could buckle my pelvis stabilizer. Tears were all over my face but then I put my chair all the way down to put my sweatshirt on. And my Mom pulls my arms to pull my sweatshirt down in the back. Once I was sitting again, I could use both of my hands to wipe my face. I had to wipe my face twice!

Ttoday, my Mom told Sean how I used to move years ago. I really can’t remember that anymore! I’m just in my chair now…

I got this email on March 1 and I didn’t write about it until right now I was thinking about it, and:

I have been nanking with dfcu you since I was 18 and I worked there when I was pregnant. I have never received a ‘birthday month’ email from them before!

‘Birthday month’ is not a thing anymore! At least not since I was 40! That was a milestone year, but then three months before I turned 41, I felt like an adult!

Sean told me that I was always an adult, but I told him that I was playing pretend until three months before I turned 41! I talked to him today and it is T -7 days until I am 43 and it does matter to me at all! I told Sean that I was a little bit surprised by it myself. It’s like I’m entering a new level. I don’t know what this one is going to be like and I’ll just have to wait and see! I always have tell my Mom that I’m 95 years old because that’s how I feel!!!

I think it’s strange that dfcu is a little late to the party, but all that email was an invitation to sign up for financial planning classes. I have been banking there since I was 18 so they know that I have no money! I have been ‘robbing Peter to pay Paul’ my entire adult life when I became in charge of the bills. I was a teacher and a single mom. But now that I am on disability, not much has changed!

At least I got some recognition even though it doesn’t matter to me anymore. I thought I would always love birthdays, but I just can’t now.

For my birthday, it’s Sara’s turn:

I clearly remember singing along to all of these songs, mostly in our second department! I think I miss my ability to sing MORE than I miss my ability to walk, but slightly less than my ability to see… #MSsucks!!! 😒😒😒…

Ever since I stopped working, I started to write on my blog almost daily. I started this blog when I was working out at Barwis Methods back in November 2013. I thought that it would progress to me walking. But after my meniscus surgery, my surgeon, Dr. Frush told me NOT to go back to Barwis until my knee stopped hurting.

It still has NOT stopped hurting and I’m not sure that I will EVER return to Barwis in the same capacity so write on my blog almost daily just to keep my mind okay because my body sure is NOT at this point!!!

I caught up with the high school friend on Twitter a few years ago and he asked me if I worked out at Barwis. I told him that I did and that that, ‘was the best time of my life!’ And I told him about my blog, I share my posts on both Facebook and Twitter when I write them. He read a few of them and I told him that I think of Doogie Howser when I do this, and he agreed that that makes sense!

I started my blog originally to track my progress at Barwis but now I am just keeping things in order in my head. 2025 is proving to be a lot of involved doctors appointments! It’s a bit overwhelming and I am trying to stay calm.

The past three years, I can have two van rentals and still be okay financially. But this year, I have three months with 2 doctors appointments so that means 3 van rentals! I told my Mom that I was nervous about this and she told me that she would help me if need be.

But, I just have one more van rental this month, on Tuesday. I am getting my teeth cleaned. A lot of people have their teeth cleaned three times a year instead of two! I keep telling myself that even though insurance only pays for two appointments a year. My hygienist thinks that I need three because she says she knows I am trying my hardest, but I need to see her more often now.

Dental health is extremely important to me, and I think my health is important to me as well. Sean told me that if my hygienist suggested it, I should do it because health gets really bad really fast in your mouth! I made the appointment the next day.

My appointment for this year so far been quite involved! The ultrasound I had in January, has made me make two other appointments. I am going to see a Urologist in April and get a CT scan in June. My doctor made this appointment for me and I hope that everything can be addressed in April so I can cancel the June appointment because that’s the third van rental in the month and that’s the ‘all nighter’ so I don’t want to do it if I don’t have to!

I remember watching Dukie Houser when I was a kid. I remember he called his girlfriend on the show, “Wanda Bear.”