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So, Leia is sick. She has been sick for a while now. She is having digestion problems and she messed in the house a few times! She has never gone potty in the house but for the past few days, we awaken to mess at the front door and at the back door.

This happens in the middle of the night and if she could, she would go outside but she can’t. This poor little girl can’t control it! She went to a different vet Thursday because she also threw up. She was given medicine which we are still giving her. Today, she had an appointment and her normal ver and she was given an x/ray to see if she swallowed something or had a blockage.

The x-ray didn’t show any blockages but she noticed a soft tissue mass at the top of her stomach. It may be her gallbladder. She ordered an ultrasound for next week.

I can’t believe that I have cried over a dog but I am so afraid for her! She is slowly getting better and is still eating bland food (ground sirloin and rice) and next week, we will work on re-introducing her dog food.

With all of this going on, she hasn’t had her two baths a week because she trembles during them. She is stressed out enough( so, consequently, she stinks! Please say a prayer for her, #MyGirlL.

OK, so I do believe I have found my new chapstick for the Summer! I woke up this morning and my lips felt more moisturized than they ever have! As I applied the cucumber mint today, I had to twist the bottom up because I’ve been using it so much because I really love it!

I think it’s a family thing because my cousin, Ariel, commented on my last post that she likes this one too!

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So, I added this picture here again so all the guys will know what my lips taste like if it is in the summer months! 😂😂😂

I searched for this cartoon awhile back because I remembered watching it fondly with my cousinTs:

And I thought of this one probably about a week ago:

So yesterday, this cartoon popped up in my YouTube feed:

I kind of got excited when this cartoon showed up and I vaguely remember it watching it when I was a kid. I laid on the green carpet in my Parents’ house back when there was still carpet there and my Dad was still alive. I’m excited for other cartoons to show up in my YouTube feed as well! Has it really been about 33 years? I’m so old!!!

I’ve been searching for two days in vain to find a picture of a poster I hung in all of my classrooms. That poster is somewhere in my basement now. It’s based on this song:

It wasn’t until this version of the song showed up in my YouTube feed today when I realized why I had that poster!

The poster I had was just an handmade poster in large font writing. It hung over all of my desks with my computer. It said:

“There is no failure here – just when you quit.”

I chose to just put a dash in because I did not know what I would call my kids and I didn’t really dig the, “Sweetheart” part and didn’t know that I would be comfortable having that posted on my wall. As it turns out, I ended up calling my kids, “Honey.” The video that showed up in my YouTube feed was the live version of the song and I have decided that I really do LOVE Bono!!!

This one showed up a couple days ago, it brought back a flood of memories for me feom my time at Western Michigan University. I can distinctly remember eating Wendy’s drive-through back when my metabolism could still handle that. As I sat in their parking lot eating it, I faced a Tatoo shop that my friend Tonya ended up getting her tattoo from and this song played on my radio. It’s so crazy that was 20 years ago!:

I posted this one on Facebook a couple days ago and yesterday was NOT a good MS day so it’s a little bit late but I was so excited to see, “Vintage Bono” in my YouTube feed! 😍😍😍

As I sat in my wheelchair this morning and tried to wake up. I opened my YouTube friend and saw this song and shared it on Facebook. I can’t share the exact video here but this is this song:

This song is one of my favorite U2 songs. It has a melancholic tinge to it that I find rather comforting and the words squeeze my heart.

Speaking of my heart being squeezed, I am so saddened that today I did NOT have Sean’s graduation party. I was looking so forward to it, especially, given my history of lack of graduation parties. With the uptick of virus cases, I feel certain that I was right to cancel it. I cannot handle the heat of it being outdoors and many of my family members are also vulnerable. I hope to reschedule it but I don’t know when that will be.

I stumbled across this picture yesterday when writing my blog post. I was searching in my media library for a picture that I know I have shared before and then I saw this one:

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I have no idea why or when I posted this picture but it made me long for the good ol’ days of when I had two, properly shaped eyebrows. My eyebrows have looked similar to this since I was 12 but that’s not how they look right now! When I saw this picture, it made me think of this song;

And then, thinking about this song made me think about this picture:

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This picture was taken the second to last concert that I saw a DTE with my cousinT, Shannon. This picture was taken when we saw Train, Gavin Degraw, and Maroon 5. The last concert I went to was also with my cousinT at DTE when we saw a Train, Maroon 5, and the Script.

I never thought I would say this but there is the issue of my short hair:

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Without a haircut in four months, my hair is super overgrown and I never thought that I would annoy me but it does:

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I am too self-conscious and embarrassed to show anyone how my eyebrows look now though!

After seeing Melissa Etheridge and her daughter cover Coldplay’s song, I scrolled through my YouTube further and came across this gem! Now, I know that I have shared this song before but I had never seen this live performance of the song from 2017. I ABSOLUTELY LIVE BONO!! 😍😍😍

Scrolling a little further let me know that, “Big brother” Knows me all too well because this song came up. I was immediately taken back to see her in teaching at Fordson high school with Mar please knows me all too well because this song came up. I was immediately taken back to see her in teaching at Fordson high school with Mr. Palise. We were still living with my parents back then and it was before I had a classroom of my own to teach.

My Mom came to stay with me on March 14th. She is my caregiver and it made more sense as the state was shutting down for her to stay here with me and Sean. I saw a post a while back about the fact that people with MS’s lives have not changed very much with the, “Stay at Home” orders. I told my Mom that my life hasn’t really changed because I have pretty much stayed in the house except for once a month to get my eyebrows waxed and my hair cut.

Sean and my Mom are here all the time so that is one thing that’s different but I I’m still living the same life. Almost, somewhat unaffected. Because it only recently it’s getting warmer, I still sit in my house in the hoodie and often times in winter hat because I no longer can control my body temperature. My central air broke the summer before my last year teaching. Once it was broken, my brother, Dave, bought me two window air conditioners. One for my room and one for Sean‘s room. When he bought them, it was the middle of the summer and I had to figure out how to save enough money on a teacher salary to get my central air fixed.

I knew that would cost me somewhere in the thousands. I did not have that kind of money in savings that summer so I needed to think deeply about my options. I never would have thought that the following October, I would get seriously injured and would need surgery. Recovering from that surgery has been very long and difficult and is still not complete. Now, I am on disability. Being on disability does none of war do you the luxury of getting your central air fixed because you don’t make that much money.

Shamefully, I am still rocking my window air conditioners like it’s in the late 1980s:

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I was still wearing hoodies and often times a winter hat because it was just a little bit chilly and I couldn’t get warm. That is, until last Saturday night. The scene of my first COVID-19 tears. My Mom had told me probably last Thursday then the window air conditioners would need to be put into my bedroom window and Sean‘s bedroom window because it was beginning to get warmer. Saturday, as I watched TV, I had to take my winter hat off because I felt warm. I also took my hoodir off close to me getting ready for bed.

My heat intolerance came over me so fast that all I could do was try to remain perfectly still to conserve my energy. I got ready for bed, and as I brushed my teeth, I could not stop or control the silent tears streaming down my face. As I wiped them off my cheeks with my hand, I try to keep my mouth from twisting. Sean always says that my mouth gets crazy when I am trying to hold my tears in. It was crazy on Saturday!

I had just written about me being very particular about my covers and the fact that I love my covers pulled up to my chin when I slept. It was so warm in my house that I could not even think about having my heavy comforter on. Instead, Sean lifted me up and put me onto my bed as tears continued to stream out of my eyes and down my face.

My Mom asked me if I just wanted a sheet on as I slept and I nodded silently. Sean had a box fan on in his room because that is where he and the dog sleep. I do not have a door in the doorway of my room because the doorway has been widened to accommodate my wheelchair so I could feel the fan blowing on my skin and my skin is so sensitive to sensations that I had to pull the blanket between my sheet and my comforter on me as well to keep the wind off of my skin.

I was so miserable but I ended up eventually falling asleep. When I awoke in the morning, Sean and my Mom put my air conditioner in my window and I was able to have it on Sunday night. When I woke up this morning, I was freezing so I turned my heat back on and I am sporting a hoodie and I wear a hat some of the time. I really wish that I could control my body temperature! And I wish I wasn’t so heat intolerant! Hence, my first COVID-19 tears.