Category: Tunes

I have been utterly and completely blown away by the damage and destruction that hurricane Dorian has inflicted upon the Bahamas! I am absolutely speechless when I see all the footage of the destruction and I have cried a lot. I was watching Chris Cuomo last night and Lenny Kravitz was on.

First of all, I did NOT know he was Bahamian! And secondly, I was surprised at how HOT he still is! He is just the coolest! I went shopping with Sean for some jeans for him today and as is our custom, we left the mall and went to eat at A&W in the surrounding parking lot. I don’t get out of the car very easily anymore so we ordered drive-through and ate in the car, facing the mall.

As Sean divvied up the food, this song came on the radio:

I just saw him in an interview last night! He was wearing sunglasses but he had some cool shorter locks and still looked just as sexy! I remembered a few years ago that Sean told me that girls in his class were surprised that Cinna (from The Hunger Games) was playing the guitar during the halftime show for the Super Bowl with Katy Perry.

Sean knew who he was because I had already told him that Lenny Kravitz was a bad a** rocker! And he had grown up hearing him because I listened to his songs often.

I appreciated hearing this song from my past, I think it was the Christmas before I had Sean that I was given this album for Christmas from his dad. After Lenny Kravitz played, Everclear came on (Because I listen to music from the 90s and 2000s on the radio). I don’t care! I’m old! I am OK with that though. Hearing music from my youth reminds me of being able-bodied. It’s kind of bittersweet but I like remembering being, “able.” I think it’s crazy that those memories are pretty distant now but they all immediately come crashing back when I hear a good song from my past!

I finished watching the first season of Euphoria last night. Parts of that episode were completely mind blowing! I can’t seem to get this song out of my head and I try to block out what was going on while this song was playing. During this episode, it was really is terrible for Cassie! To know what’s going on in this episode, you have to get through all eight episodes of the first season. Crazy! I haven’t started watching season two yet. My, “Binge game” is NOT what it used to be because I am having a hard time staying awake during the day these days. There is preseason Lions football today so I may have to start watching season two when it comes out.

It was a rough morning this morning. I watched GMFB in silence and struggling to wake up. Kyle Brant made two references to songs from high school and early years of being a mom.

The first song reminded me of getting my eyebrows waxed the summer after my junior year. NOT a fave tune but I haven’t been able to get it out of my head today!:

He referenced Hoobastank. He says that this song was a terrible song but I really dug it! I never saw the video until today because back then, I had a two-year-old so I didn’t have time to watch MTV.

I watched a lot of the Wiggles back then. This song was my favorite but it didn’t come out until Sean was almost done watching the Wiggles. I think he may have been almost 4:

I have realized that I haven’t been feeling very well for a while now but even when my body or my knee is is really in pain or I am having difficulty speaking, my, “Fuddy-putty” has really been helping me. I have a leveled up AGAIN today.

That really makes me feel good!

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I have gotten past the extra, extra soft:

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It took me 10 days to get better at that one but my friend told me that eventually it will become easy and at first I didn’t believe her but then it did. Then it was time to move on to the extra soft:

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The orange one took me 12 days to get used to and become easy and today, I leveled up again! Now it’s on to soft!:

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This one is a bit more difficult for me It really IS therapy putty because I can watch TV and mindlessly pass it from hand to hand. Working with the green one, I can feel it in my forearms. At first, with the teal one, it felt like a sharp burning pain in my wrists and with the orange one, It started moving to my forearms but with the green one, it is for sure in my forearms!

It feels good to level up! It’s nice that I can feel accomplished regarding something that is physical. Brushing my teeth has become easier because I can actually control the toothbrush. Sean told me that I will be, “Ripping phonebooks in no time!“ Maybe. But I feel that my leveling up has caused me to move from the Jefferson’s theme song to Jennifer Hudson singing the Jefferson’s theme song even though I STILL live in a house on the WEST side of my city. Her version is just so much more sassy!:

My Mom drove my nephew to college today. I am not thinking about the fact that she drove him to Michigan State University. I saw my niece’s beautiful apartment the other day on Facebook and don’t even want to think about it being at Michigan State University as well!

I couldn’t help but think about when my Parents drove me to college almost 20 years ago! Two of my brothers also came with us to unload all of my things. When they left, and it was just my parents and me, I started to get nervous. I was uncertain, intimidated, and scared… actually, I was terrified! I had no idea what to do but in that moment when I heard the elevator ding as my Parents were leaving my floor, it really hit me! I was completely alone and on the other side of the state!

My Mom just recently told me what they said to each other on the elevator ride down and on their way back to their house. My Mom told my Dad that I was afraid and I had no idea what to do. My Dad assured my Mom that I would figure it out. He told her that he didn’t know what to do when he first landed in Vietnam but he figured it out. He figured it out enough to come home and eventually be my Dad!

I thought about the terror I felt then all day today and remembered playing my music very quietly so as not to disturb anyone. I think it was almost 2 weeks before I heard someone else’s music down the hall from me so I realized it was OK to play my music at the level I wanted it. I was listening to the new Third Eye Blind CD back then. I have written about this song before but I can’t stop thinking about it today:

I also thought about that night when I got hungry and truly realized my expensive and new found freedom for the first time! Cue Guns N’ Roses that I heard when I was on E. Pond Dr.;

Sean started his senior year today. After he got out of the shower and got dressed and ready for school, he came into my room where I was laying in bed still kind of groggy. Mornings are always rough for me as of late. I saw him walk into my doorway and I exclaimed, “The last, first day!” He smiled and gave me a hug and a kiss before he left for school. I remained in bed until my Mom came over to get me.

As Sean left, he told me that he loved me and I told him that I loved him too and to have a good day. I put Gavin Degraw on my phone and kind of dozed off until my Mom came over. This song that I posted yesterday is what I need these days.

As a laid there somewhere between sleep and wake, I thought about his first day of first grade at Divine Child. He is far removed from first grade and I know that I have pictures, I just have to find them. I didn’t take a first day picture today pbecause I was still in bed when he left but I’m really proud of him and the fact that he is in his last year of school.

I thought about my Dad and imagined what he would think of my baby now! I’m sure I will write about it soon but I can’t just yet. I called Sean when school was over just before he was on his way home and I let him know that his graduation party is 311 days away. He laughed and it warmed my heart.

It’s a rough day today and this song is getting me through.

Oh, Gavin! I want you to, “Take my pain” and be my, “Soldier,” for sure!

Last night, I think it was Anderson Cooper that I heard say, “Say it ain’t so!” I immediately thought of the summer when Sean was two. It was the summer he wore his rain boots with the handles every single day regardless of the weather because he really liked putting them on because he really liked putting them on by himself!

I even got him a second pair. He had a red pair originally and I think my Mom bought him a yellow pair for variety but mostly because my nephew liked wearing them also When he was at my Parents’ house. It was back when I was still an undergrad and we still lived with my Parents. It was the summer that I listened to this song in the car all of the time! I had it on a mixed CD are used to listen to.

That was this summer that he had just awakened in the morning in his crib that was in our room (It was really my bedroom growing up and I just moved his crib in when he was born). He sang, “Like father, step father!” I remember that making me laugh so much!

I thought that I had shared this song on my blog before and it took me searching through 17 pages of posts in the, “Tunes” tab of my blog on my phone. I was correct! I had posted it in my “February 2018 Faves.” Searching for that post, I realize that my blog is QUITE extensive now! I have 70 months of archives to sift through but I was able to narrow down the post easier since I started the, “Tunes” tab about five years ago.

That’s a whole lot of posts for me to search through and it makes me cringe that I have not properly edited a vast majority of these posts! I was just talking to my Mom about, “The summer Sean wore the rain boots every day“ yesterday and it made me laugh because it was SUPER cute!

I also remembered telling Adam about that summer when I was training at Barwis and Mike’s son came out of Mike’s office wearing the same boots but in green. He was about the age Sean was when Sean did this and I laughed and knew EXACTLY why he was doing it just like my baby had done so many years before!

After the search for the post that I had this song in, I found it and I knew I would! Of course I shared it; I LOVE that memory! I was glad that I had already shared it already. It took a long time for me to find but I LOVE that memory! I have been thinking about that summer since I heard Anderson Cooper say that yesterday night, and immediately thought of that song. I was pretty sure I already shared it because I am a pretty predictable person!

I swam competitively with the Dearborn Barracudas in the summers from when I was 5 or 6 to when I was 13. My young family were swimmers. We swam at Fordson high school.

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The starting blocks have changed in the past almost 25 years since I swam but I found a picture today to illustrate my point

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That picture shows how far from the edge of the pool the water level is. All I know is that by the end of practice, at about noon, my brothers and I were completely waterlogged! I have written before about my coaches Mr. Bill and Mr. Sykes. My brothers and I talked about this not too long ago and we figured out that we swam close to or just above 1000 laps in that pool a day.

Today, I had a memory that I hadn’t thought about in years. We ended every practice with sprints. I remember that there was an analog stopwatch on the wall and Mr. Bill would put his whistle into his mouth and tell us that we were to do, “25s on the :30.”

The pool was 25 yards in length. We were to swim 25 yards or the length of the pool in 30 seconds. Often times, he would add the caveat that at the end lof their lap, we were to, “Get out of the pool.” Getting out of the pool was not an easy thing to do! I am short, 5 feet tall and I was only about 10or 11 years old and doing this so I was pretty short back then.

I remembered Mr. Bill putting his whistle in the corner of his mouth and telling us to start on his whistle. I vaguely remember that we would do three sets of 20 with a one minute rest between sets. It was brutal!

What I thought about today was the fact that I used to be able to do that. It was difficult, very difficult at times, but I could do it. I thought about that and the fact that I cannot do it at all now and I began to cry. I am crying is a write this post. My Mom hugged me and let me have my cry-out for a little while.

After I was dressed and ready for the day and sitting in my wheelchair, I continued to cry. I immediately could tell that it was another, “One of Dem days!”

Well, it WAS a good idea today because it goes well with an entire sleeve of Thin Mints! And yes, I ate them all! DON’T JUDGE ME!!!