Today is Palm Sunday and I can’t tell you how many times I have gone to mass on Palm Sunday as a child and taking Sean as a child as well but this is the first time I can remember crying during this mass. For holy Thursday, that’s a given but I don’t understand why I cried at the beginning of the week.
Something is working inside of me right now and it feels big! I have heard Palm Sunday mass so many times and I really can’t understand why I was crying but I’ve got a lot at steak this holy week.
It’s ’go time,’ on Wednesday. I.have two appointments (Wednesday and Friday) and one more next week. I am getting my air conditioning fixed on Thursday. That’s pretty Exciting! It’s been nine years. I’ll ‘splain ya later when it’s fixed.
Today is holy Thursday. That is my favorite day of the church year! I have gone to so many holy Thursday masses and I have cried at pretty much every one. I finally remember when Mr. Flint washed my feet in my religion class! Surprisingly,I got something new out of father Mike’s homily today.
But, there was another reason that I was looking forward to holy Thursday because I finally was able to get my air-conditioning fixed today!!!
I have awakened all week to an alarm. It’s definitely wreaking havoc on me and I have to wake up to an alarm tomorrow as well, a really early alarm! I have a doctors appointment at 10:45 in the morning. It is so hard to get up and out of the house! But we are doing it and I am determined! I will totally crash this weekend!
Rob got here about 11 today with an assistant named Randy and they left at about 1:30. At about one, he told my Mom to turn the AC on to 60°. He worked a little while longer and I was sitting in the living room, eating my lunch and my nose got cold!?!
He also told my Mom that it was going to be 75° on Monday so it looks like we got it fixed in the nick of time!!! my AC died in the summer of 2016 and my brother got me two window air conditioners for both my bedroom and Sean’s bedroom.
I thought that I would be able to get it fixed before now but it’s all about deferred gratification! A professor told me about that in one of my classes and he said that all of us ‘college kids’ have ‘deferred gratification’ because all our friends are getting what they want now and we are getting an education. Or something like that. It was a long time ago!
I was excited that the appointment was set for my AC! I thought that I would shed one single prideful tear down one cheek. It’s always my right cheek when that happens. But let me tell you what happened when I heard that power tool.
The tears began welling in my eyes immediately and streaming down my cheeks! I put my hands in my sweatshirt arms, and pressed the heels of my hands to my eyes to stop crying. My shoulders were shaking and. everything! I really can’t believe that I ‘ugly cried,’ but this deferred gratification feels SO good!!!
I have always loved going to the Stations of the Cross! I even brought Sean along with me when he was young. I haven’t been to stations of across in so long! I think Sean was a freshman. He graduated five years ago.
But on the Pray40 Hallow app, I went 3 times!!! Jonathan Roumie, and Jeff Cavins are in Jerusalem, walking the actual way of the cross that Jesus walked!!! That feels so powerful for me and maybe that’s why I watched it three times?!
