Not Prepared

So, I just realized that I have a doctor appointment next week?!

ALREADY?!!!!

I’m not even recovered from last week as of yet?!

I am not looking forward to my April appointments and they start next week! I have one next, two the following week, and one the week after that!

My Mom asked me again today about changing the appointments, and I told her that I can’t because these have to be done as soon as possible!

April 9 is urology and hopefully, she can address my calculus, because I am becoming increasingly aware of it as of late. I already have a CT scan scheduled for June and this other doctor, I saw last week, added to the scans. I will see my internist before I have the CT scan and I will let her know about the request for more scans.

This all seems so big to me right now! Tears come so easily now! I wasn’t prepared for that either!

My Mom commented a while back about why I am getting so many scans and I let her know that I am not healthy. It’s necessary that I get these scans.

And it’s a little scary to be honest and I wasn’t prepared for that either!!!

How Could I Not?!

I never would have thought that my life would be how it is now 24 years into this disease. But as the rain is coming down on my roof, how could I not?!

My life is so small now and I watch the same movies. I’m already gearing up for my April appointments!

It is the third appointment of the month that is going to be a doozy!!! I’m already thinking about what time I will have to wake up because my appointment is at 10:45 a.m. downtown!