“Delicate”

I awoke this morning and my hips felt a little bit, “delicate.” As I sat up in bed from ‘zero gravity’ because that’s how I sleep; the sounds that I was making were FAR from, ‘delicate.’

I spent the morning kind of reclining in my chair. My Mom seemed more concerned about it than me but I reminded her that I don’t move at all and I have osteoporosis in my right hip. I go for another bone density scan in January of 2026.

I messaged the pain clinic doctor about my x-ray. I had gotten that x-ray when we went to the cider mill. I had forgotten about it and I couldn’t fully understand the findings.

Another doctor confirmed what I thought it said. I have osteoarthritis in my right knee now. Yeah. I just need to sit with that for a little bit…

Aware

When I awakened in the morning, as soon as I opened my eyes, I am very aware of my hips as of late! But when I awaken, I have to sit up in my bed.

That ‘awareness’ becomes pain as soon as I’m starting to sit up in my bed. I moaned and grunted with the best of them this morning as well as I did yesterday morning.

I said the other day that my hips were ‘delicate,’ but I think we’ve gone from ‘delicate’ to ‘fragile!’ I don’t go for another bone density scan until January 2026. But I don’t move at all anymore. I have read so much that bones don’t like NOT moving but that’s what’s happening with me.

Wednesday night, it rained all throughout the night, and the only reason I know that is because I could not sleep at all because my knee was throbbing!!! This was the first time that I experienced pain at this level regarding my knee!!!

I tore my right ACL playing a basketball game my senior year and had surgery in the beginning of January 2000. My meniscus was torn in my right knee on October 21st 2016 at work. I think it was a combination of both those injuries and subsequent surgeries that made it hurt so badly!!!

All I could think of was the drumbeats in Jumanji, but this was just a slow throb! I usually drift off to sleep with the daily Bible reading or a rosary. Wednesday night, I listened to the daily Bible in his entirety. And then I listened to the previous week’s Homily again its entirety. Sleep was not coming at all so I thought to play Rosaries on my phone. I didn’t fall asleep till after I had said five!!!

This is so much now!!!