Category: A Bit Of Randomness

This category is full of randomness that really doesn’t fit nicely into any of the categories having to do with my road to walking.

2 Things

My Mom and I listened to music as she washed my legs yesterday. It was time to change my compression socks. we pretty much have a routine down pat, it’s pretty much second nature. While we were doing this, we alternated choosing songs that we liked.

Random songs were popping into my head as I was trying to decide on a choice for my song. I chose random songs from my youth. Songs that would remind me of a guy or something. What I discovered is that there are only two things that will bring me to tears regarding songs. The first thing being if it is a song reminds me of my Dad. I will definitely cry then! The second thing that will make me cry is if if I listen to this song and I feel that it pertains to my disease. I am no longer a dramatic teenager and I am looking at being 40 years old in less than two months but some songs do evoke tears. I listened to this one last night and I listened to it again today and I cried both times:

A Late Night Bike Ride

So, lately I have been thinking of the most random songs. These are all songs from my youth, even more specifically, high school. I was thinking about posting songs from The Chicks (formerly the Dixie Chicks). The memory that came to mind as I heard the first bars of this song, is me going on a late night bike ride with my brother, Jimmy. It was probably 2 o’clock in the morning. It was in the summer and he had just come back from Mexico. He got the idea that we would ride our bikes, (his low rider bikes) to` his friend’s house who was the brother of my friend so we would kill two birds with one stone.

I don’t know that we ended up going to their house, or they weren’t home, but I remember talking with my brother and he asked, “So, you listen to country music now?’” I remember laughing and I told him I did because that was the rage back then.

Active or Passive?

Since the beginning of the pandemic, I have become a more passive football fan. My Mom moved in with me and I know that she is NOT a football fan! Last season, I just checked the scores on my NFL app. But then, my man changed teams!!!

This season, I HAD TO watch his debut in SoFi! Because the Rams are doing so well, and are in the Wildcard game tonight, I will be watching the game at eight! I told my Mom I’d like to say that I was going to do this.
I am so excited to see this came! It’s his playoff debut!

I am so excited to see this came! It’s his playoff debut! But if the Rams lose tonight, I think I’m going to be more of a passive fan during the playoffs. I can’t even eat my normal Super Bowl food anymore!!!

so, right now, I am watching the Golden Girls marathon until pregame starts! I had a good feeling about Matthew Stafford being the quarterback of the Rams so I planned accordingly:

An Active Realist?

I didn’t text with any of my friends while I was watching the game last night because it was a little bit nervous!!!

today, I received a text message from my friend after sending him this::


He texted me this question:

I am not sure, it’s possible but I thought of this song immediately:

I usually will have my pic for the Super Bowl winner by now but I am not sure. I know what my heart wants but I don’t know if that will come to fruition. So, I am definitely going to watch the game next weekend an active realist on this one!

Audio Messages

I have been seeing my speech pathologist for a little over a month now. Because of the pandemic, our visits are virtual. I meet with her every week for about 30 minutes. We talk on the phone. She originally had lists of words for me to read which progressed to sentences and now she sends me articles for me to read for us to discuss at the next appointment.

Yesterday, she told me that she wants me to call her work phone and leave a message. She wanted me to leave text messages. The first message is an unedited and then I can edit the message because that’s how I am! I told my Mom last night about the text messages I was going to send her but my Mon reminded me that her neighbor sends her audio messages because she cannot spell well.

Because I have been using my voice to text capability for so long on my phone, it has gotten used to how I sound when I say things. It even texts the word, “Abuela” because I use that word so much when I text Sean. I left Meira two audio messages. The first message was 24 seconds long and the second message is 28 seconds long. I think she will leave me a message tomorrow to tell me if that form of communication works. I can’t get over how difficult speaking is for me now! I even cried yesterday at our appointment because it is SO difficult now! She has told me that overworking the muscles in my jaw will help me to speak better for longer.

She has told me that I am doing very well and I think it is good that I use my voice to text capability when I blog on my iPad as well. That’s another reason that I try to post daily. I will let you all know what she thinks of my messages tomorrow or whenever she answers me?

Strength and Courage

Very shortly after I joined Facebook (20 years too late), I, “Friended” and “Liked” their page. They are: MS Memes and more Multiple Sclerosis Awareness. There wasn’t a Multiple Sclerosis Awareness month when I was first diagnosed. It was about 10 years after I was diagnosed that there was one week in March. I have posted many pictures about my T-shirt sales back when I was working. Now, the ENTIRE month is dedicated to Multiple sclerosis Awareness!!!

Oh, I am aware of it every second of every single day for the past 21+ years!!! MS Awareness Month is approaching so I have been receiving a lot of posts from them in my Facebook feed. I feel special that they chose March to be that month of recognition because that is ALSO my “Birthday Month!” I saw this meme yesterday and have thought about it since:

When I read this meme, a song immediately popped into my head by India.Arie. That took me back to my college days when I was still driving and was just on crutches.

I reposted a blog post from 2018 because it talked about a poetry slam I did when I was in school for my African-American studies class. I listened to that song and stayed in my memories for a while. I listened to this song before I am about to post it and I revisited those same memories and seem to be there right now:

“She is Gone, but used to be Mine”

I have been listening to this Sara Bareilles song every day for a long while! I only listen to it when my Mom is taking Leia for a walk because she says it is depressing.

for me, it is NOT depressing! It actually is autobiographical. I saw this picture on Facebook not too long ago and it made me think of this song because for me, that girl really IS gone but she used to be mine!

My Mom is out taking Leia for a walk so you know what I am listening to and I am lost in memories of being able bodied…

And somehow, I am comforted with this song in this moment of sadness.

MyGirlL: Regal

My Mom gave Leia a bath today. I really appreciate that because she smells so good and Leia knows how good she looks! So much so that now that she is almost 3, she’s a teenager and so she has to pose in pictures and that’s what she’s doing. My ‘Kate Moss’ Looks so regal!!!: (AND she smells good too!!!)

#Elated

The second half of last night’s NFC championship game was a little bit intense for me. But, my man and his team pulled it off! I changed my Facebook profile picture accordingly:

Sean sent that tweet to me last night and it was striking how deep it was and I really liked it! Sean always says that I turned my back on the Detroit Lions but really, I have just followed my LOVE of Matthew Stafford! That love has been there since 2009 when Sean started playing peewee football.

I didn’t pay attention to this commentary last night because I was busy texting Sean and my friends about his victory but I loved seeing it again, this morning:

I shared the reply with my friends because I am so happy that Matthew Stafford is going to the Super Bowl!!! I am elated in fact!!! I have NEVER had a horse in the race for the big game!

I don’t even feel bad that this happened once he left Detroit but I’m so happy that it happened!!! I just love him!!!:

Sean and my friend sent me this one which kind of made me laugh but I don’t even want to think about that…: