When the doctor told me that he ‘rid my body of cancer,’ just as I was hearing Our Lady Peace and thinking about all the people that I have loved and lost as well as the people currently fighting it, I instinctively said quietly, “Thank you” because I am my Mother‘s daughter.
He offhandedly told me that the polyp is being biopsied and that I would be contacted on MyChart with the results.
Well, those results came in today. Actually, when I had just awakened and hadn’t quite gotten out of bed yet. I decided to log in to MyChart to find out what it said. I completely expected it to say nothing!!!
I STILL do not understand why I DO NOT realize that I have had MS for almost a quarter of a century! OF COURSE they would find something and they did. I read this message, screenshot it, and sent it to my Mom.
Here is part of it, and I don’t know what else to say about it:
I read that and remained silent. My Mom came in to get me out of bed and told me that she read the entire thing as well. Our routine when she gets me out of bed is pretty much a silent one. We both know what we have to do. It’s been years.
So, when she gets me into my wheelchair, I need to adjust my chair all the way back to that gravity do the work to get me seated comfortably in the chair. I then buckle my seatbelt (really it’s a pelvis stabilizer) and then bring my chair forward, and I put my sweatshirt on.
Then, my Mom grabs my hands and pulls them straight out in front of me. I get to stretch my back as she pulls the back of my sweatshirt down. As I did that this morning, (this afternoon) I said, “I guess he really did rid my body of cancer.” What I was not prepared for, was what happened next.
She has both of my hands and I am leaning forward and I began to sob!!! Like, tears streaming out of both of my eyes and I’m STILL sobbing!
I didn’t think about this until after I was in the living room and the only reason I stopped sobbing was because I gave myself a headache. This song came out when I was at Western, and I only learned probably in the last decade that she has Lupus and that’s what this song is about:
They were diamonds on MY bedroom floor this morning for sure!!!