Month: September 2025

I taught seventh grade English from 2005 to 2010. I think it was 2008 when we had ‘a moment of silence for 9/11 victims. We were doing that my first year teaching because my first year teaching was 2005.

I think that it was 2008 right after the ‘moment of silence’ were a student asked me, “Miss, what was that like?” I could feel my demeanor change. In a completely sober tone, I said, “Sad.”

With a straight face, I said, “I was in college and six months pregnant. I had an auditorium class where we were cut off from the world as we were we’re going over art history slides. That’s the class I was in when it happened.

So, we leave class and I’m headed to my second class of the day which was women’s history and I get seated in my desk when a guy walks into the door and announces that the second tower fell. The woman who sat next to me, used to work in that building, and she began to cry. Hysterically cry, just as the professor comes in and cancels class and tells us to find a TV somewhere. It was scary and we did not know what was going to happen next.”

I don’t know that my seventh grade students were anticipating that answer but that’s what I said. Today, I didn’t realize it was September 11 until I got on Facebook:

I’d see something like that and I would feel a catch in my throat. And I continued to scroll:

A Facebook friend posted this, and I started to cry:

All day long I have thought about a writing class I had that was in session on September 12, 2002. She assigned a ‘free writing’ assignment and said that we could write about something that I don’t remember, but the last thing she said is what I wrote about. She said,“Of course, to commemorate yesterday’s events you could write about ‘loss.’”

My Mom and I had just watched a 20/20 and the babies were born after 9/11. Their mothers were pregnant or did not find out until AFTER their husbands died.

I remember at me and my Mom watched that pretty much without talking. It was sad. I remember that my professor commented for 20 minute free write, the fact that I could write four pages was impressive.

I know I have that paper in the box with all my notes from college. Maybe one day I will look for it. But this one made me cry the most! I actually sobbed:

I’m surprised that I’m so emotional this year. But, with disease progression, I guess that’s not all that surprising…

Tonight, while taking my night supplements, I noticed that I mixed up the times I take the certain supplement. I noticed this yesterday and today confirmed it.

I think I have been using this new pill box for a little over a month now. It’s strange because they are shaped differently. Instead of four squares, it’s got six sides so they’re shaped funny to put more pills in them. I feel like they are ninja stars. I kind of thought of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles the first time I put my pills in them!

I’m still getting used to the icons to show me which time I’m supposed to take the pills. When I put my pills into the box, I’m wearing my contacts. I can’t see the pictures on the box. But thinking about it, I still get the same amount of pills every day! I just took them at the wrong time of the day.

No big deal. We get haircuts next week and I see Dr. Clark the week after that. That’s it for September but October and November are full already!!! At least I will be able to breathe a little better this time, I still haven’t talked about the appointments that I had during the summer months because that was really difficult!!!

I got an email today about MS and memory. I haven’t read it yet. Have 24 years of having this neurological disease, my brain is just different. I can explain it, but it feels different…

Things I think about pretty much all day…

Two different companies came by today to give us an estimate for my garage door. I am still waiting for the third one to come in Friday. The HVAC guy who did my air-conditioning recommended them.

It’s been 16 years, but I think this is what deferred gratification looks like because this feels good!!!