I didn’t finish pillaging until 12:43 a.m. yesterday. My Mom was laying down and I let her sleep until 1:00. We are on the opposite side of the clock and I don’t know what to do about it!!!
I hear Sara Bareilles saying that, “Sometimes life just slips in through the back door and carves out a person and makes you believe it’s all true…”
https://youtu.be/53GIADHxVzM?si=cCKZXHgsI3yvxfoc
I really can’t believe that this is my life now!!! I never thought it would be this bad. I’m still trying to piece together this past summer. I can’t get Anne Hathaway’s song out of my head because that’s exactly how I felt for the entire summer!!! I cried just like she did!!!
There’s something haunting in her eyes and that’s exactly how my eyes felt!!! I like that the weather is better for me to think. I am getting two companies coming tomorrow to look at my garage door and give me an estimate for a replacement. A third one is coming on Friday.
In the meantime, I will just exist. I first told my Mom that a few weeks ago and she didn’t agree with me, but I think she might be seeing that I just exist. I just exist between doctor appointments. We are getting our haircut on the 17th and the following Tuesday. I’m going to see Dr. Clark.
I like that I know what is expected of me, but I never thought this would be my entire life, which is what it is right now. I apologized to my Mom that it’s her life now, too.