Month: June 2025

“This Hell I’m Living?!”

I was telling my Mom about Anne Hathaway’s performance in Les Misérables. I told her that she’s sang beautifully, but I have no intention of watching that movie again because it was so heart wrenching!!!

Last night, I showed her videos of Anne Hathaway singing and Russell Crowe and Hugh Jackman singing as well. This reel showed up today:

And somehow I cried too, watching her singing this with her shorn hair, which is just like mine now… would I describe what I’m living as ‘the hell I’m living’? It’s not fun to say the least and this weather is not helping. I have an appointment next week…

Rando Tune #60

I haven’t posted a Rando tune in a long time. The last one was a Christmas song on January 9. But I thought of this one today because I was thinking of my high school days and I remember jamming to this song with my friend in the car, with the windows rolled down:

Like a Nun

This morning as I groggily, ran my comb through my hair. There were no knots. Wait. What?! My hair is so short now. I have hair like a nun.

I do not like this at all, but it is necessary for me to have hair this short. I look like sister Mauritia.

She was a nun who worked in the office at my grade school. Me and my Mom were talking when I first told her that I have hair like a nun. I told her that I look like sister Mauritia. She was the meanest nun ever!!!

My Mom says that she was not mean, she was direct and she just didn’t care. I told my Mom that the translation is that she was terrifying! I was terrified of her! She even had the white whiskers on her chin. She was so mean that it was scary!!!!

My Mom told me recently that when she was the PTO president, she wanted to make a bulletin board in the hallway of all the teachers as children and then she would have a student guess which teacher was which child. So she asked sister Mauritia for a picture of her when she was young. She declined and did not participate.

Then my Mom told me that Sr. Mauritia told her that she had something for her to see. My Mom beautifully walked over and Sr. Mauritia showed her a black and white picture of a child smiling at the camera with Shirley Temple ringlets! Sr. Mauritia, the meanest nun at Saint Alphonsus has ringlets?!

I’m pretty sure that everyone I went to school with back, then, felt the same way because we were kids and she was mean and scary!!! I have hair like when she was a nun at my school now. #MSsucks!!! 😒😒😒…

Shorter OR Carmel Highlights

I got my haircut today. It’s shorter. Shorter than I ever thought it would be in my whole entire life! Here was what I went in with:

I told Christina that I think that I needed to be shorter with all of this heat. This is what I left with:

When she finished, before she waxed my eyebrows and face, I told her, “It’s a far cry from Carmel highlights!” She just got a somewhat somber face and said, “Yeah.”

When she was cutting my hair, probably 15 years ago, she always told me that she wanted to give me caramel highlights and she thought that would look beautiful! It is a far cry from that and she waxed my face today. I’m sorry that I can’t muster a smile because this weather is brutal!!!:

“Me too.”

I talked with Sean yesterday on his way home from work. He stopped to get gas and we were talking as he went into the gas station and I heard this song:

He told me that, “Wake up call” is gas station music now! I couldn’t believe that and I told him that I feel like I am in our second apartment. To which he answered, to my delight,”Mr too.”

Focused.

I’ve spent the last three days with tears streaming out of my eyes with no control over it. It’s been brutal! But now, I am focused.

I’ve already e-checked in for my appointments next week and I paid my bill in MiChart. Who would have thought that a urogram would be $200?!

I’ve entered into a payment plan to pay for that while I will go over the next two months to address that development with my doctor.

This is getting so serious, but I am focused. I absolutely love that it’s not supposed to rain until after our haircuts.

Brutal

This weather is absolutely brutal!!!

I can’t believe that it has been so warm for so much of this day! I got a headache today. I hadn’t felt the screwdriver in the right side of my head for a long time, but I felt it in full force today!!! Thank God that my air conditioning is fixed!!!

it’s difficult to breathe.

80° OR “Desperation”

I awakened to it being 80° outside today and it stay there for a while and went up to 84°. This is how it makes me feel:

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This is only the beginning and I’m hearing this song in my head because my brain is fuzzy and it kinda hurts:

I am just hearing the lead singer, Danny Donoghue sing, desperation because that’s how I feel right now!!!

This is only day two of this weather that has finally come and it’s staying and it really stinks! My Mom is picking up the van tomorrow for our haircuts on Wednesday and it’s supposed to be raining. That really stinks!!!

Existence is Difficult!!!

I think today was the day where it’s going to be very warm outside now! The fact that it hit 80° today and it’s going to stay pretty much there the whole week and it’s ‘go time’ for me?! That is really stinky!

For example, today my Mom told me that I was a little bit testy and I told her, “Oh, I am 1000% because it’s hot outside! My body feels that!”

It’s going to be very strange for me this year because for the past nine years, I had window air conditioners. Even though I am comfortable in my house, my body feels how warm it is outside, I have cried three separate times today. Tears just stream out of my eyes because now that it’s warm for real, for real, existence is difficult to say the least!!!