I have been thinking a lot and I was feeling quite uneasy and I couldn’t understand why. But yesterday, I got some clarity finally:
I’m going on 25 years of having this disease and it absolutely is horrible and I hate it every single day but I get through it. I looked at my calendar on my phone for April.
“Go time” starts on Wednesday this month. And then the next week, I have two appointments but one of them is just a haircut so I’m comfortable with that one. My appointment on Friday to see my dermatologist is going to be a little tricky because it’s pretty early in the day!
In looking at my calendar yesterday, it’s completely doable. I say that because I tell myself each day when it’s tough and I need to figure something out, I say something along the lines of, “Suck it up Jen, you have a damn masters degree!”
Hearing myself say that encourages me to just get what I’m doing – done! So I am going to hold my breath for my April appointments, but I’m happy that in the end, the week after my two appointment week, I will get a little more clarity on why I have lost so much weight! That’s kind of scary to me!