Uncomfortable

I have known that season three of Bridgerton came out on Christmas 2024 for a long time! I just couldn’t watch it!!!

Let me ‘splain ya!:

I very much wanted to watch Bridgerton, Christmas Day, but we had festivities going on. It’s very strange to watch certain TV shows with my Mom!

I learned that when I binged Game of Thrones! Each time that my Mom came into the room, it was a most compromising scene! Just like it is with Love Actually.

I do not care how old you are, when your mother sees you watching something risqué, it’s totally uncomfortable!!!

Well, today, I was able to finish watching Bridgerton season three. I think this was my favorite season!!! I am a firm believer in the fact that that, “Big girls need love too!!!

As a former ‘Big girl,’ it was my favorite thing to see Pen marry Colin but Sean was just telling me that I am not a ‘big girl’ anymore. That fact is so BEYOND uncomfortable! Even more uncomfortable than having my Mom walk into the room for certain scenes!

I was just telling my Mom last night as I sit in my bed before I go to zero gravity; it’s unsettling to see how small my hips are now. I wonder if that will ever go away? Because it’s happening, regardless.

I was able to watch the last two episodes today by myself. My Mom went to pick up the van for ‘go time’ tomorrow and she visited my aunt before coming home to wash my hair.

‘Go times’ are getting harder now and I need to spread them out. Scheduling appointments when you have a chronic illness is getting to be quite difficult as well, seeing that all of the specialist that my primary care doctor tells me to see, have very short clinic hours! I schedule appointments at least four months in advance now.

I am happy that I am kind of knowing the ropes now because it’s been so long that I’ve had to see these doctors. I will see my neurologist virtually in August. The last time I had my appointment with her, my Mom will move my phone as I am showing her how I move my body.

My Mom told me after we hung up that I was making all the movements before she was finished telling me how to move my body. I told her that I have been doing those movements for 23 years! I know exactly what to do! And then I told her how they have changed over the years with my disease progression.

But, let me not think about that now because I’m gearing up for ‘go time’ tomorrow. I’ve already set my alarms to get up super early and I know what orders I need to place.

I will leave the house on Wednesday, Friday, and the next Tuesday. That is it for January but I already have my February appointments scheduled because I am getting my teeth cleaned on my own schedule now. I have to have three cleanings a year now.

I am NOT comfortable with this disease progression at this point…

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