Month: October 2024

“My Least Favorite”

I called Sean today on his way home from work. I asked him how his workday was and he asked me how things were where I’m at. I told him that I am using my Salted Caramel chapstick today. Then I promptly told him that it is my least favorite. He laughed at that and said that I am just forcing myself to suffer through this fall chapstick. Then I started to laugh, but I told him that this is the first time this Fall that I’ve used it and somehow it is a little bit ‘sweeter’ so you know what song popped into my head right then?!:

Vanilla Maple

Today, I used my Vanilla Maple chapstick for the first time in a long time! I forgot how much I really liked this flavor! I saw once on Amazon that they had a four pack like they have for my Cucumber Mint. But I have more Fall chapstick tubes to go through until I think about going completely Vanilla Maple. Maybe next year or the year after I think…

“Nothing is the Same.”

A few nights ago, my Mom and I were talking about music and she couldn’t understand why I listen to sad music all the time. She told me that she likes, “Upbeat music.” I just looked at her and I said with the straight face, “I can’t handle that anymore.”

She looked at me when I said that, and she just kind of understood I thought. I think of music in the past tense now. I have a soundtrack of my life and what I was doing when the songs came out. But now I just live in my memories. I told my mom a few days ago as well, “Nothing is the same.”

Because REALLY nothing is the same anymore and I don’t think that I really was expecting this. This is an upbeat song that I did not hear until my 20s that I post on my blog every October but now that I am in my 40s and my disease has progressed this much, sadly, I don’t think I can handle it anymore…:

I didn’t watch Hocus Pocus today. I think I’ll watch it during the weekend…