Month: July 2024

My cinnamon this morning was 1/2 and 1/2. Half dirt and half the Mr. Sketch brown marker. It wasn’t as intense. When I finished my shake, I tossed it into the garbage can by me and I burped (WITH MY MOUTH CLOSED BECAUSE I AM A LADY!!!) and it tasted like chai tea. I love chai tea and I smiled to myself.

I meant to write that my tablespoon of cinnamon in the morning when I wake up no longer tastes like the brown Mr. sketch marker! And I think that is because we used all of the last batch of cinnamon. so I started a new one yesterday.

The intensity yesterday and today was different. It’s still intense only because it tastes like a mouthful of dirt!!! I could feel it in my teeth, and my Mom commented on it.

it seems like this is my new routine for the rest of my life! Sit with a mouthful of dirt or a brown Mr. Sketch marker in my mouth for 30 minutes. Then I take my vitamins and drink my shake to make sure that all of the dirt is out of my teeth! It seems like that will be the case because we will get it constantly from Zerbo’s.

Today is the first day of my Dragonfruit Lemon chapstick weekend. I really dig this flavor! It’s similar to the Grapefruit flavor that I tried a couple years back. I think it tastes like Grapefruit plus something else. I dig it!

I am still reminded of summer in college. But this is undergrad college. Not grad school college!

Grad school college was exclusively at the School of Education on Hubbard Drive. My undergrad education was largely at the CASL building. Pronounced, “Castle” it stands for college of arts, sciences, and letters. All of my English classes were in that building.

Today I thought about my final time in that building. It was just before graduation! I had to go to the administrative offices on the second and third floors to make sure that all my I’s were crossed all my T’s we dotted. I think commencement was the following weekend.

That close to commencements, I had already completed my student teaching, and had already broken my ankle so I was in a wheelchair. Parking in the disabled section did not seem strange to me because I had been parking there my entire time at school. I never thought that I would be as disabled as I am now!

This is the memory that I told my Mom. I was remembering my final time going into that building. I pressed the button for the first door to open to allow me between the two doors before you get into the building. I was not adapt at using disabled accommodations at that point and I’m not sure that it was properly formatted anyway.

I had forgotten this memory for 19 years! So I get in between the doors and the door shuts! I remember thinking, “What am I going to do now?!” but just after I thought that, another student came to the door from the inside. he was leaving.

I think that we laughed and I thanked him for opening the door to let me out of in between the doors because I was stuck! I had totally forgotten that memory, but now I can clearly see it! I think the guy had longer light brown hair?

I saw this updated forecast late Tuesday night, and I thought that it’s still okay! I can handle that!

But, now I realize that I CANNOT handle that when the vent in the backseat of the van is broken!!! Because that’s what happened yesterday, but I did not realize that until I got back to my house after we had already gone to the naturopath and gotten our haircuts I was completely spent!!!

Definitely a HARD recovery day for me today and I did not wear my contacts but I thought about my naturopath from yesterday. I started seeing him back in 2011. But I must say that it’s only now that I can say that I truly love him! And here’s why.:

My body seems to be doing well with what I am on and he added a couple more things. I really saw him yesterday, he wasn’t looking at me, and he just was kind of looking off in the distance before he looked and said extremely sympathetically and almost apologetically, “It’s chronic.” I just nodded in agreement and said, “yeah.”I’m so glad that he is on the case because he is finding what is working out with my body and I really appreciate that!!

When I opened my eyes this morning (really the afternoon), I laid in bed and listened to three full rosaries so it was almost an hour that I was laying there because I DID NOT have the energy to sit up in my bed!!! Once I sit up in bed, I asked my mom to turn the light on and remain there for ANOTHER two rosaries as I am cleaning out my email and checking Facebook and Twitter. I saw this meme on Facebook and it’s totally fitting!!!:

The word I use is miserable. This is just miserable!!! My Mom asked me that probably mid June and I said it was miserable the fact that it is still miserable and will remain miserable till probably September.

I had a feeling that MS was going to start being more intense, but I was not anticipating this intense!!! it’s miserable!!! it’s really miserable!!!

There ABSOLUTELY is method to my madness and I will ‘splain ya:

I think that this has to go back to last weekend when I first tried out my Dragonfruit Lemon chapstick. As soon as I applied it to my lips, it reminded me of summer. But not summer as a child, summer as a college student. And I was remembering one specific memory as I put it on my lips and now after my executive decision, I get to think of that memory every single weekend! Here is the memory:

it was summertime and for some reason my brother’s car was at my Parents’ house for something. Someone came and picked him up from there or something. Either way, my Parents told me to drive my brother’s car to his house and they will pick me up and we will go out to dinner.

He had an impala and I clearly and distinctly remember my Parents pulling up to his house, and me jumping out of his car exclaiming to my Parents, “This is a luxury sedan! and I am going to own one!” I think this was the summer before college at WMU. I had just graduated from high school. I was still driving the Cavalier that my Dad gave me.

So then, fast forward to my first year teaching, and I totaled the car that my Dad bought me (I slipped on black ice on my way to work, apparently Dearborn roads are a little less slick than Detroit roads! I didn’t know that?!) so it was time for me to buy a car of my own. The thing about impalas is, you have to park them in order to drive them. That was something I COULD NOT DO at all! I ended up settling for a male room. Full size car is too big for me but midsize is acceptable. I didn’t even drive anymore now! Maybe that’s why I couldn’t park a full-size car in the first place…?

I think it was the last summer when I talked with my Mom about the fact that I may be addicted to Chapstick. She was the one who suggested it, because she read about it online and I laughed hysterically!

Fast-forward to this summer, and since the beginning of June, I have gone through two ENTIRE tubes of Cucumber Mint chapstick! Wait. What?! Maybe I am a little bit addicted to chapstick… I love how soft it feels on my lips when I press them together. I guess I like that feeling a little bit more now that I am homebound and it’s a little more painful…

Because of that possible fact, I have made the executive decision to make my new Dragonfruit Lemon chapstick, my chapstick for the entire weekend. maybe I will let my current chapsticks last until September when I can go to Pomegranate for Pumpkin Spice in October. So, I guess I may be a little addicted to Chapstick… so be it!