Friday I had my doubleheader. It was a success, but I am not ready for what comes next! I had two appointments and I have two new return dates. One in May and one in June I told my Mom this morning, “I’m not ready for this.”
I spent yesterday recovering from Friday, but I needed to wear my contacts because I had to pillage. All three of my appointments were in the same building on Friday. I started out on the second floor and then took the elevator down to the lab, and then took the elevator back up to Internal Medicine.
I’ve been going to that office for years, I used to take Sean there for his pediatrician. This is the first time I can remember, taking the elevator, and actually facing the doors. I hadn’t seen myself in the mirror for years!!! Once the doors shut, I stared at myself and shock.
This song popped into my head when I was staring at myself, because I thought that, “I am NOT ready!”:
I have been chubby for my entire life! But once the doors shut, my coat was hanging off of me. I stared at myself in disbelief. Six times we were in the elevator, and six times, I was not okay with it and I was reminded that I am not ready for this!
I did not get weighed at Internal Medicine this time but I will do it in three months. I will need to buy a new coat next year. I’ve had that one since Sean was in high school! This time, Dr. Chamas, my internist, wants to see me again in three months. Wait. What?! Three months?! I have NEVER gone just three months between appointments.
But I think she is seeing all of my upcoming appointments and wants to talk to me about them. I will see my new doctor in May for genetic testing and I will also see my endocrinologist for the first time in May the week before that.
I have always wanted to be skinny, but not like this! I really am NOT ready for this…