100% of my life is routine now. I fully accept that but today, it kind of hurt a little bit for me to realize that fact.
Let me ‘splain ya,
Past pictures that I have taken on my phone will show up randomly and I saw this picture today:
This was from my Barwis days. We were laughing and I. could NOT smile that big that right now if I tried! This picture is probably a decade old. I remember that I thought that Adam’s name was. “Phil” because I thought I heard Jesse call him that. Well, it’s not, but I called him that anyway the ENTIRE time he was my trainer! I used to write about my time at Barwis and I would put it on Twitter with the hashtag, #JenAndPhil I think.
Back then, I used to grow my nails out until one broke, and then I would cut them all and let them grow out again. Sean reminded me probably about a year and a half ago about the fact that I used to pop my contacts out of my eyes with my nails. That was in our second apartment. I remember that when I heard him say that; it’s sad that it used to be like that because it’s not like that now AT ALL!!!
My Mom cuts my nails every other Monday now because they need to be cut to the nub so I can get my contacts into and out of my eyes. It’s more difficult to control my hands now but I still wear my contacts so I can see even with my glasses with my prism over my right eye.
Back in my Barwis days, Adam called my nails, “Claw Nails”:
But now, this length is what constitutes a nail cutting:
So, I think that I have just posted this in memoriam of my, “Claw Nails” because that’s no longer going to be a thing anymore. I wanted to chronicle that because I used to love washing my hair with my long fingernails and Sean told me that I had the best nails to scratch his back, but I was terrible at it. I think I have been steadily losing hand control since I started writing really, really big. I used to tell my students that I write ‘obscenely large.’
Retrospectively, I was writing so large, because I was losing control of my hand muscles. Now, I cannot write anymore at all! I appreciate that I can write all of my blog posts using my phone and voice-to-text capabilities. 😒😒😒…