I made my Dad a mixed CD for his 55th birthday and I gave him 55 singles. That was the last birthday present I gave him because sadly, he was gone four short months later.
My oldest nephew texted me yesterday and asked me if I had that CD. I texted him back this:
He was the first person to make me become “Aunt Jenny.” he is the tallest person in my family, but his number is saved in my phone as, “Lil Dave” because that’s who he will always be to me.
After I sent that to him, in the evening, just after I brushed my teeth, I listened to those two songs that I put on the playlist that were just for me:
Those two songs are difficult for me specifically and I thought I would write about that but just after the U2 song and I was remembering crying on my way to work, a random song came on and I lost it!:
I lost it because the significance of that song! I could feel myself ugly cry and I didn’t even care! My face was wet with tears and snot and everything I couldn’t even wipe my face cause I was crying too hard!
My Mom told me that she sang that song to my Dad when he was in the hospital. She didn’t tell me that until after he died. I love to hear that story because a nurse walked into the doorway and then asked my Mom, “Are you singing to him?” and when my Mom answered, “Yes,” she just said, “I’ll be back.”
I really think I lost it last night because as I listened to that song, I could feel my Dad but I’m going to stop talking about it now…