I texted Sean today at 1:38 this morning because I just realized it is May 1 and that is the day, 22 years ago, that I found out that I was pregnant. I texted him that and added this song in my text because this was the song that was playing in my car when I turned it on and laced my arms through the opening of the steering wheel and rested my forehead on the top of the steering wheel:
I have never forgetten so many details from that day, because that was the moment when I realized that I was NOT alone.
This is a 22 year old memory, but I can remember wearing gray Champion, sweatpants, and a free Western T-shirt that I had gotten during the past academic year. My wet hair was in a messy bun after my shower. I don’t remember my appointment time, but I already knew that I was pregnant but I needed confirmation.
I can remember the details about the woman who spoke with me at my appointment, her name was Laura, and remember her lavender sweater set. Those memories are playing in my head right now because I don’t think I am going to sleep anytime soon.
That place is on Telegraph road and no longer is a women’s clinic. But every time I pass it, I will never forget the events of 22 years ago, today and they are forever ingrained into my mind!
I had made a “The Seanie Mix” CD just like I made “The Daddy Mix” CD. I have just added songs to a playlist on Apple Music now. I have most of the songs that were on “The Daddy Mix” CD. that is just titled, “Daddy”and I have a “Seanie” playlist but “Your Song” is NOT on it. I think I’m going to do that right now and then try my hand at sleeping…