This morning, well actually, it was this afternoon when I awakened. My Mom came into my room and started taking my blankets off of me. I was situated in the “TV”position for my bed so I was pretty much sitting upright.
We don’t really talk much as I am waking up but we will have a conversation. Today as my Mom was moving my chair from where it is plugged in for the night to put it where it needs to be for me to get into it, I looked to my right at her with tears in my eyes and I said, “This hurts.”
This statement kind of startled me and I am STILL trying to make sense of it because in the 22+ years that I have had MS, I have only admitted it hurts with tears in my eyes twice now.
The first time was when it was raining and my Mom was driving me to work. It was my last workday before I stopped working because I needed kneesurgery. I remember crying because it was raining but I’m puzzled that I cried this morning and it is not… does this mean that something is going to be happening to me soon?