This [Can’t be] 40?!

I remember that my oldest brother came over to do some plumbing work for me back when I was 32. He asked me if I had seen the movie This is 40 and I told him that I had not. He told me that it was really funny and I should watch it! I think I started watching it but I didn’t get all the way through it because I had to do some thing else but…

I am one week away from being 41 and I must say that this past year, this can’t be 40?! It feels like my disease is in hyper-speed mode and I’m having difficulty dealing with it but I think I have not had a chance to just sit here to recognize it as I experienced it like I have been these past six years since I have stopped working.

I see my nutritionist on Wednesday coming up and I think we have figured out exactly what I need to eat. Once I started seeing her and changed my shakes over to nutrition shakes opposed to protein shakes, I gained 4 pounds. But for the past five months, I have weighed the same so I have finally stopped losing weight!

At least at this point! I hope. That was the craziest sentence to write because I used to always WANT TO lose weight but now I am losing weight without trying that kind of stinks too.