For me, my Mom has always been the most optimistic person I have known! After all, her favorite movie is Pollyanna. Me and all of my brothers can quote that movie almost Word for Word!:
I really needed that this morning and let me explain why:
Not too long ago, my Mom and I were talking and I told her the last time I really woke up feeling rested from night sleep was probably back in high school. Back when I lived with my Parents. My brothers and I refer to that as, “6020.”
So, ever since I moved out on my own, my MS has been progressing so I do not sleep well at night. I don’t even dream anymore. I just wake up and I’m always tired but. That’s just the way it is and I have accepted it.
But now… I am awakened in the morning by pain in my feet! I really can’t get over the fact that I haven’t felt my feet for 20 years but now they wake me up out of my sleep! This morning, my Mom took my socks off to tend to my feet and she took a picture of my sores before she cleans them.
I’m not going to post these pictures here because that is not what kind of blog this is but when she showed them to me I thought that they looked awful! As she washed my feet, she told me that they are healing and it was just going to take time.
She looked up at me as she was washing my feet and with tears in my eyes, all I could do was say, “Your optimism-“ before I had to stop talking for fear that the tears would come out of my eyes and I shook my head. I have since told her that it is her optimism that is going to get me through this because it is seriously killing me!!!