I received an email yesterday. It was regarding Sean‘s commencements. When I started to read that email, that was my sixth Covid-19 tears.
The email detailed procedures for the baccalaureate mass and commencements. Only the students are allowed in the church for the baccalaureate mask and it will be live streamed. I had to stop reading because I was crying too much. Sean’s prom and senior lock-in have been canceled.
This morning, my Mom read me the email and it’s entirety and my seventh COVID-19 tears started. I cried today be cause I wanted to be at commencements because this would be the combination of 12 years of hard work and it was supposed to be wonderful. At the end of the email, there was a caveat saying that maybe it will be canceled completely as everything is changing so rapidly.
I cried because there is so much uncertainty right now. I also cried because I die in the heat now but I have to be there for my only son’s graduation! Don’t I?!