Last night, once my Mom brought in the mail, I received a check in the mail and those prompted my fourth round of tears during the COVID-19 quarantine:
It was the refund check for my deposit on the hall I was to have Sean‘s graduation party. I was so excited to have this party given my history with my own unfortunate graduation parties and it was going to celebrate the fact that I put him through 12 years of catholic education. This one was going to be, “One to beat the band!” But, alas, as I’ve said before – me and graduation parties just don’t mix and Sean isn’t extension of me! It bummed me out to receive this check because I much rather would love to have a huge party to celebrate with my family and friends.
This morning, my Mom was speaking to her sister on the phone and she recounted all of my missed graduation celebrations and the reason for them not being celebrated. No question that both of my Dad‘s open heart surgeries took precedence over celebrating. And for my graduation after receiving my masters degree, he was already gone.
Many parents are changing their kid’s graduation party by limiting the invitation list but I can’t imagine NOT having some of the people I invited to the party there and a lot of my family members are compromised just like I am so I don’t want to spread anything or put them in harms way. As my Mom was telling my aunt these things, my fifth COVID-19 tears started. I don’t know when it will be possible to have Sean‘s graduation party but I hope it is soon.