Month: May 2020

My first tears of the, “Stay-at-home” orders were warranted, I think. It was too warm in my house and my air conditioner was not set up in my room so I couldn’t handle the heat. Think that was the primary cause of my tears.

However, I cried yesterday as well even though Sean ordered B dubs for us for Mother’s Day which was absolutely delicious! I was even able to have leftovers for lunch today. But I had an uncomfortable feeling gnawing at me and I couldn’t understand it.

I saw this video on my YouTube feed today:

I shared it on Facebook and I think that my hair will look similar to this (even though I am NOT a redhead like I have always wanted) when all of this is over. I have no idea when all of this will be over and it will be safe for me to leave my house!

I actually think that my tears were because I’ve said before that not much in my life has changed with the, “Stay-at-home” orders. The rising death toll in the United States scares me so I don’t plan on leaving my house anytime soon but one thing that is really making it difficult for me is my overgrown hair and my one eyebrow.

It’s gotten like that now and I think that depresses me. I have always made sure that my eyebrows were well-groomed and even on a fixed income, I still managed to make that happen. But now, I have not gotten my haircut nor my eyebrows done since the middle of February. I think I will say that that is what has made me cry so I don’t have to think about all of the horribleness going on around me!

This evening, my brother, Steve, and his girlfriend brought over dinner for my Mom and me for Mother’s Day. I appreciated that I got in on her Mother’s Day present from him because she’s staying at my house! so, before we chowed down on our Antonio’s, my Mom brought the food into the house and wiped it all down and cut my food up for me because it’s like that now.

As my Mom was in the kitchen, preparing our food, Leia put her front paws on the shelf by the door! She was dangerously close to grabbing tissue out of the box that was there. It was just her and me in the living room and then, “My teacher voice” came out! It startled me because I have an use their voice for almost 4 years. But when Leia got up onto the shelf, it just came out! I think I said something like, “Hey! Get down!”

Of course, she got down because she’s a really good girl! But hearing my own voice definitely startled me! They came out so naturally in the moment but my speech has been a problem for sometime now.

It was kind of nice to hear how my voice sounded so many years ago though. Many of my former colleagues and friends are still teaching and my heart goes out to them for all of the hard work they are currently doing! I don’t think I could do it! But it was nice to hear that when it comes down to it, I still got it! I don’t know how long I will still have it but it got Leia down!

So, today after I brushed my teeth in the late morning because it takes time for my body to chill out. I saw this, actually I knew it was coming but this morning it has come:

My cousinT, Shannon, brought me this pack of floss picks because when this shut down happened and everyone was sheltered in place, everything was getting hoarded, these particular floss picks were NOWHERE to be found and that really bummed me out!

Dental hygiene is very important to me and now And I am immunocompromised, it is imperative that I keep my teeth end it gums in good health!

I didn’t really floss growing up but my cleaning just after my 30th birthday let me know that flossing needed to be a daily thing, twice a day. So I have been flossing my teeth twice a day since I was 30. Now that my hand strength is so compromised, these specific floss picks work well for me and I like the taste! So this late morning, I used the last of my gift from my cousinT.

it’s a really good thing that my brother, Jimmy, was able to find and bring these over to me:

SCORE!!! Looks like I will be set for a while and my gums will continue to be happy and healthy!

My Mom washed my hair today. That’s how it is now. It was difficult to accept at first but I have no choice but to accept it. Leia is completely chill about it. Sean was working online and this was her last time because we weren’t sitting in the living room with her:

My Mom washes my hair in the bathroom. I sit on the toilet seat and she uses the sink. We keep the door open when we do this. So, today it’s freezing and it snowed so it was NOT a three act play as a blow dried my hair. My hair is super long now (by my standards) and it took a REALLY long time to dry it completely but I appreciated the heat because I am having a really hard time staying warm today!

When my Mom transferred me back into my wheelchair, I rolled into my living room to see #MyGirlL in usual form!:

As soon as I got into the living room, even though my hair was just washed, I put on my winter hat!

Yesterday, my body finally started to relax late in the morning. My Mom asked me what I wanted to eat and I laughed a little and told her, “Cookies.”. She was puzzled by my answer so I made my way into the kitchen to recount the story of Sean.

I have to say that I haven’t had a cookie all year! I reserve my cookie eating for my extended family’s Christmas Eve party. My aunt Lala‘s cookies are to die for and well worth all of their calories and carbs!

I told my Mom that I wanted, “Cookies” because when Sean was young and we still lived with my parents, he climbed out of his crib one morning and got into bed with me on the other side of the room. I asked him what he wanted for breakfast and he told me that he wanted pancakes. So, I got up and made him pancakes. The next day, it was either the weekend or on one of my college breaks, I asked him the same question.

He thought for a minute and answered, “Cookies.” I started to laugh because he fully expected me to allow him to have cookies… for breakfast! He didn’t get cookies for breakfast but that story always makes me laugh so when my mMom asked me what I wanted for breakfast, I told her, “Cookies.”

My Mom made me eggs because I wasn’t going to eat cookies. she poured me some milk and before she started washing the dishes, she placed two cookies by my milk. They weren’t just any cookies, they were, “Face Cookies”!!! I laughed because I didn’t even know we had cookies in our house and let alone, “Face Cookies!”

Now, when I say they were, “Face Cookies,” I am talking about the Keebler rainbow chocolate chip cookies. I have been calling those cookies theis for 20 years! My nephew, David, called them, “Face Cookies” when he was about three years old. The name stuck! Both my Mom and I call them that and see no problem WITH calling them that!

So, when my Mom placed those cookies by my milk, of course, I HAD to eat them! The, “Stay-at-Home” orders have been tough for me with my overgrown hair and my bushy eyebrows! I had to give myself a little bit of a break even though for years, carbs have NOT been my friend!

It just came to my attention yesterday that I had not posted by April 2020 Faves?! The lockdown had already started back then and I was hard-core into my, “The Office” binge. It was completely an oversight on my part which upsets me because I have been posting my monthly Faves in the Tunes Tab of my blog since December of 2013!!!

It seems that I am completely off with all that is going on with COVID-19. However, in my hard-core binge, I have posted at least 16 songs that I jammed to and noted on my blog during the month of April. My extreme apologies for not posting my April 2020 Faves but I did not post my May 2020 Faves until the third of the month!

***My posts from April can be viewed in the Tunes Tab on my blog.

Late this morning, my Mom was washing dishes as I ate breakfast because she eats breakfast a lot earlier than I do while I am still trying to wake my body up. I ordered her a couple things to be delivered to my house for Mother’s Day. As she was washing one of the presents I got her, she said, “Blue IS my favorite color!“ I told her that I know that because I do. Blue actually used to be my favorite color when I was in high school!

My favorite color choice had to change when I had Sean. It has pretty much been me and Sean for his whole life! When given the choice between colors, I always have allowed Sean to choose the blue one. The options for the choice was most obvious when Sean started getting his teeth cleaned. I always made appointments for us to get our teeth cleaned simultaneously. Sean’s hygienist knew to give Sean the choice between a blue or green toothbrush. My hygienist knew to give me a purple toothbrush because our toothbrushes are in the same bathroom.

So, purple became my favorite color by default. Actually, aubergine is my favorite color:

This color is the color of my comforter. My really heavy comforter that I absolutely love! I didn’t learn this word until about five years ago from my former colleague, Mrs. Cochran. We worked together for my entire 12 years working there and it was in passing in the teacher lounge that she made reference to that color. I didn’t know what she was talking about so I asked her and she told me. When she showed me the color, I told her that that’s my favorite color! That and that word sounds really cool!

My Mom helped me out of bed kind of early Sunday morning after my really bad Saturday night. My entire house wakes up early now we have a puppy. It was cooler in the morning so I was more comfortable. Something I witnessed that was truly heart-warming was that my Mom spoke to all of my brothers before 11 am. They all called her and she was elated to speak with each of them. She put most of them on speaker because she was doing things in the kitchen as I tried to wake up and let my body, “Thaw out.”

I half-overheard the conversation she had with my brother, Dave. He is a police sergeant in Detroit. My Mom asked about how work was the night before because he works midnights. I heard both of them laughing which I liked to hear as was still somewhat incoherent.

He talked about issuing citations to a lot of people loitering in groups. Deaths are rising in do United States and Michigan exponentially so I think that that fact had something to do with my tears the night before. My Mom asked about these young people who were loitering and the fact that they could spread the virus to vulnerable people in their houses.

Dave said that he didn’t care because, “My two vulnerables are safe in a house.” He was talking about my Mom and me! We both have been holed up in my house since the middle of March so my hair is long and my eyebrows are bushy but both of us are safe. I smiled to myself with my eyes closed as I tried to wake up because, Sean had taken Leia out to the yard and my Mom and I were really safe.