I think it was the first dinner I made for for Sean and me in our second apartment. It was the fine dining of cut up hotdogs, broccoli, and macaroni and cheese. He was the one to eat the macaroni and cheese because it was when I first Started the no carb thing. As I sat at the table and we ate dinner, after grace, Sean looked at me and said; “You’re a good cook, Mom.”
I looked at his small, innocent face and I told him, “ Thank you but you don’t even know!” I have never been in a great cook. I just prepared food to sustain us. Of coarse a four-year-old would think I was a great cook. It was his favorite things and he didn’t know that there was better out there.
I thought of that when I watched a movie at my Mom’s recommendation on Netflix:
Now, my Mom’s track record is hit or miss on Netflix but I watched it so we would have something to talk about. I dug it! The excellent cooking of Hassan reminded me of one of my favorite movies, Burnt.
I watch it so many times because of my thing for Bradley Cooper but both Hassan and Adam (Bradley Cooper) end up being three Michelin star chefs. When watching the movie, that I finished yesterday, I couldn’t help but to think about Sean telling me that in our second apartment. I thought it was a solid movie and I’m sure I will discuss that with my Mom today.
As things have played out, I no longer can make dinner for us. #MSsucks! I just like putting my Christmas tree up, I have more of a supervisory role now. I have walked Sean through making my brownies but I can no longer do it myself. I had just started getting into crock pot cooking because it was easier but now, I am just a supervisor for that as well.
i’ve never LOVED cooking but given the fact that I can no longer do it, it hurts. I wish that I had taught Sean to love it but I couldn’t do that either because I did not authentically love it. I did, however, instill a love of reading in him! He has fallen away from that in his teenage years but I don’t think that that love can be entirely lost. I hope.