Reminders

It was rough waking up this morning. The weather is wreaking havoc on me and I just felt, “Off” today. As I waited for my Mom to come over, after I woke up and called her; I listened to, “Electrical Storm” as is my new routine.

I checked my YouTube feed as I waited for her. I came across this song and was immediately reminded of high school. I was driving in my car with the window down and singing this song at the top of my longs! I shared it on Facebook before I clicked on it and placed my phone next to me and kind of laid there almost listlessly as I waited for my Mom:

I laid in my bed without singing. I just listened and remembered my able-bodied times for high school. I think it’s kind of crazy that I have to remember being able-bodied. It really stinks that I no longer am! I was a little bit sad when the song ended and I scrolled through my YouTube feed.

I came across another song that lives in my memory. It’s a more recent memory of being an adult and even living in my house; so it’s not that long ago. Back then, I could barely sing along with this song but remembered washing the dishes to that song and/or falling asleep to it in my bed before my renovations while I still had to wake up in the morning for work:

Immediately after I listened to this song, my Mom came over. She helps me get out of bed and as soon as I was seated in my chair, I was reminded of how bad things have gotten. I appreciated those memories before I got up out of bed and realized how much it stinks having MS and then I became aware of how badly my knee STULL hurts.