Continuing with the focus on things that people don’t realize I can no longer do.
I miss singing.
I always sang pretty loudly throughout my childhood and even after I had Sean. I sang often in both of our apartments and the beginning years of living in our house. I have been told by some people that I was pretty good. Sean told his preschool classmates that I was in a band. He told them that I was in a band with his, “Aunt Shannon.” I grew up with her and I call her my, “CousinT.” She is an unbelievable singer and she sang throughout high school in school musicals and different choral groups.
We would both sing at the top of our lungs along with the radio or we would sing along with the soundtrack of a musical. I’ve taken the BEST road trip with her because she makes the best mix for us to listen to! Our singing together was fun and easy!
I have pretty much memorized the entire Sara Bareilles album that just came out. However, I don’t belt it out along with her. That would be too tiring! Sometimes I mouth the words or I sing them in my head along with her.
It’s been a couple years since I’ve really sang along with any music that I listen to. Music is a pretty important part of my life and it kind of hurts that I no longer have the stamina to really belt the words out!
I wonder if I ever will again because I know that your vocal cords are muscles but I just don’t have the strength to work them out especially when it doesn’t sound like it used to! This fact is kind of sad because I am home alone a lot so it really doesn’t matter who hears me except, I hear it. The fact that it doesn’t sound good makes me even more sad.
I’ve been listening to this song a lot. I always thought I would be a wine drinker but alas, that’s not very good for people with MS. I will just silently sing along to this song in my head… :