959

Today, it has been 959 days since I have been to Barwis Methods. That’s two years, seven months, and 17 days. That’s a VERY LONG time! My knee was injured at 960 days ago and it has not stopped since I was injured and my orthopedist said not to go back there until my knee doesn’t hurt.

I asked Sean to get me out of bed immediately this morning when he was getting ready for school. I was safely in my wheelchair before my Mom got here but it didn’t feel that much better. I turned GMFB off about halfway through the first broadcast. You know it had to be BAD if I wasn’t even going to watch GMFB! I reclined my chair back almost completely flat and it helped a little bit.

My Mom got here and was making breakfast for both of us I sat in my kitchen and stared at the rain, I told her that my legs are feeling like a G.I. Joe doing the splits:

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I used the example of a G.I. Joe because I didn’t have many Barbies growing up or at least not many Barbies with heads. I told my Mom that I was on the verge of tears! I reposted a post from January 19, 2014. This was the day I wrote about Michael Rhodes doing the, “Ooh Doggie!” stretch on me. I did not realize how important that stretch was until now.

Since it has been 959 days since I was stretched, my MS has progressed that much more, not to mention the added stress of the constant and excruciating pain from my knee and subsequent surgery. When Sean got home from school, I was by myself and he looked at my face and saw the pain. He wrapped his arms around me and I started to cry. Today is a really bad MS day! What I wouldn’t give for another, “Ooh Doggie” stretch right about now! But I really can’t think of doing that because I can’t imagine my knee being bent like that now!

Today, with the rain, it is an extremely difficult day! Actually, they have ALL been extremely difficult for the past 959 days! I miss who I used to be even five years ago and I hate popping prescription pain pills like it’s my job but I’m trying to get this under control.