It’s pretty frustrating to me how for the past more than two years I am conscious of my right knee. The third definition that popped up in my Google search was, “Painfully aware of; sensitive to.” If that hasn’t been me for more than the past two years, I don’t know what it is!
I opened my eyes this morning and rolled over from my left side onto my back. I felt movement in my knee! Any feeling that I have in my right knee scares me but feeling strange movement just after being in the hospital for pain involving my right knee is EXTRA scary!
I suggested amputation of my right leg to Dr. Washington in the ER on Saturday. My Mom ABSOLUTELY hates when I say that! Suggesting that does not actually mean that I want to cut my leg off but rather, I want this pain to go away and it has NOT for the past two years so amputations seems like my best option.
Dr. Washington understood that I was joking and laughed but he let me know that it is better to have, “Two pivot points” when transferring to or from my will chair so I need both of my feet. I guess amputation is not an option but I DESPERATELY want this pain to go away!
It’s so frustrating that it has not gone away in the past two years and somehow I’m trying to come to terms with the fact that it may not ever go away and my knee is broken.