I sleep on my left side. It’s not because I injured my right knee; rather, it may be that I’m left-handed. It’s just always been comfortable for me. It has worked out since my right knee was injured so since the injury, before surgery, it was helpful that I always slept on my left side. During recovery from surgery, I slept in a medical recliner so it didn’t matter. Once I was able to get back into my bed, I was grateful that I slept on my left side.
Last night I fell asleep on my left side like I always do. I don’t remember my dreams. All I know is that at 6:40 AM I was abruptly awakened from them! I felt a burn-y pain in my right knee as if the knee had “popped” out of its socket. I slightly opened my eyes and rolled over onto my back thinking that it would “pop” back in. It has done this before since my injury. Not this time!
I laid there, on my back with my eyes closed. I still felt the burn-y feeling. I wondered what I was going to do to make it go away and make it “pop” back into its socket just when my legs spasmed. They both shot straight out. As they did, my right knee made the loudest crack accompanied with the MOST excruciating pain as my knee “popped” back into its socket. My eyes shot open and I’m not sure that I made to sound because I could not believe the extreme pain I was in!
The pain has lasted all day! It wasn’t like the pain from my original injury or even like the pain after my surgery. This pain was completely different. It let me know that my knee must be broken! I am calling Dr. Moore‘s office tomorrow to see if I need to go back in because there is something STILL wrong with my knee! 19 months after my initial injury and 13 months after my surgery!
I am ALWAYS in pain! It is not like the MS pain I have been feeling for 17 years and I can’t believe I still feel the pain in my knee! More importantly, I cannot believe the amount of pain I am in today! I was sleeping and all I did was roll over in bed! My knee definitely has to be broken!
As I was getting ready for the day, my knee “popped” out of its socket AGAIN! I gasped as I always do until my Mom “pops” it in again. This time, just as she popped it back in, instead of being met with silence and my eyes closed I immediately began to whimper and cry. Something DEFINITELY is broken!
Amid all this pain, my spirit is NOT broken but today it has come pretty darn close! All day, I have felt that my knee is swollen accompanied with a throbbing pain, even more than normal! As I lay in bed now, I can’t help but he afraid, VERY afraid that I will be awakened tomorrow morning with the same kind of pain!