I try my very best not to have days like today; but, in the past 17 years, it happens. I try to not let it happen very often but… there will be a day where I realize, “this sucks!” It’s just an annoying feeling that will not go away! I try to busy myself by doing my dishes or something but the tears just leak out of my eyes!
I can’t help but think about the extreme cruelty of all of this! My body is fighting against itself EVERY DAY!!! It’s days like these where I think about what I really have lost in terms of my abilities and I think about my true limitations. This just sucks!
I received a mug I ordered a while ago yesterday in the mail and I opened it today:
It came in shirts and sweatshirts but I thought that I would use a mug more often. Here is a better picture of the prayer if you cannot make it out on my mug.:
I find myself having difficulty remembering what my old self was like. Regardless, often I do wish all of this was a bad dream; A REALLY bad dream! So today is difficult but what I think is tipping the scale and making it TOO much to handle is the extreme pain in my knee!!!
This just sucks!!! GRRR!!!…