I was nervous to meet my new neurologist on Tuesday. As my Mom pushed me into the elevator on the first floor, we waited for the elevator to fill up to make my way up to the Neurology clinic on the 11th floor. My Mom pushed me into the elevator all the way in to the left corner. I was facing the back wall and didn’t really turn my head to look around because my peripheral vision is not good.
As the elevator filled up, a woman with a walker came into the elevator and stood to my right. She looked at me and smiled. She immediately put hands on me and began praising God! I am a spiritual person and I did not mind this at all. As she was speaking over me all I could do was nod and say a quiet, “Amen.”
I will gladly take any prayers offered on my behalf because having MS is definitely NOT easy! The pain in my knee and circumstances surrounding It is not easy either. I think her prayers over me before my appointment helped me to be more accepting of my situation. It made me so happy that my Mom and I laugh together at my limitations. As I wrote my blog post on Tuesday, I had a feeling that my acceptance would be fleeting. It was. It is!
My knee has really hurt today! It’s a constant ache with no immediate hope of getting any better. I suppose in a way, I am grateful that I have MS because it does not hurt as much as it could because I can’t feel my legs fully. Today, it hurt enough! I tried to concentrate on other things because I had dishes to wash and I had to make my garlic tea so focusing my attention on other things helped me not to think about the pain. My Mom came by this morning to help me as she does every day with my morning routine and to rub the numbing cream on my knee.
I have often told her that she is Mirium and I am Tirzah. These references are from Ben Hur. A Charlton Heston movie that is a huge part of my childhood, especially around Easter! I didn’t even see it this past Easter which made me sad and I didn’t even get to mass on holy Thursday. I don’t like to go out in public very often if I don’t have to because my knee hurts and I don’t want to be around people who could hit/hurt it.
I only have left my house since my injury for physical therapy or doctor’s appointments. As Sean’s sole legal guardian, I had to accompany him to the secretary of state to get his license. Other than that, I am home. The last time my Mom came over today was just a little while ago to rub the cream on my knee again. I reminded her that she is Mirium and I am Tirzah and she agreed. The end of the movie is so wonderful for them and promising for me as Tirzah.
I’ve added some random clips if you have never seen the movie before. I would definitely recommend it!
This is an extremely long and old movie.
In this clip, both Mirium and Tirzah are lepers now.
At the end of the movie, after the crucifixion, they are cleansed.
This clip is better footage of the cleansing.