As soon as I woke up, I am mediately thought of David Bowie’s song in the movie Labyrinth,“Within You.” I thought about which one of my knees was being more cruel. My right one, for hurting but my left one, for feeling completely normal! I’ve decided that it is pretty cruel for me to know exactly what a healthy knee feels like! I’m having a really hard time getting over the fact that it’s been over a year that my knee has not been okay.
I worked with Luba when I get to ATI. She asked me what kind of sensation I felt it in my legs compared to sensations I have in my hands. She rubbed her finger on my right hand and I thought about it for a while. I took a deep breath and told her 3. If feeling in my hands is it 10, then feeling in my legs is a 3. I told her that my bathroom floor is cold still and that was a good thing because I am barefoot in my bathroom and my bathroom floor did not start getting cold until I started working out at Barwis so sensation is still there.
I thought about my knee hurting so badly, if my sensation is lessened in my legs, maybe it hurts a whole lot more, I just can’t feel it! Again, that’s pretty cruel! Luba’s verbal catalyst for me to raise my left leg was, “Hit it!” That made me chuckle a bit to myself. I remember that I had a friend in high school who used to say, “Hit it” all of the time referring to driving somewhere, like, “Hit the road.”
Luba did the ultrasound and Larry hooked me up with ice and stim. The combination of those three things made my knee feel really good but just for that time. When I was almost home after physical therapy, my knee began to ache again.