I started off with my stands with Brad and Larry. My first down was my strongest. As I sat resting a bit, Larry reminded me of making a sound whenever I stood at Barwis. I had completely forgotten about this! He asked what sound I made and as I stood and pulled my shoulders back and my knees felt sturdy; said it, *BINK*.
He started to laugh and as I sat down, he told Brad all about it. He said it sounded so silly amidst all of the blaring music and people working out to hear the sound I made. We all laughed and I thought of Adam. I told Brad that I only said it when I felt sturdy in my stand and then I would tell Adam that I could, “Stand for days!”
My first two stands that day were pretty good and my last two stands weren’t so good. I was so excited that at least I was standing! Or, attempting to stand when it came to my third and fourth down. I laid back down on the table and Brad started me working my knee. I did left foot raises And then Brad walked around to the other side of the table and put the foam roller underneath my right knee and had me raise my foot on the right side. It was so much easier! I could do it so much better! That made me feel better because it let me know that my difficultly raising my left leg wasn’t so much that I have MS but it was because I had surgery.
I was tired after all of this and Brad told me that I was going to get some well-deserved ice and stim. I smiled and agreed with him. I laid back as the stim. machine was going and thought about Barwis. I was so afraid I was losing so much strength because I haven’t been there in so long but today, I realized all is not lost. All that work I did was NOT for nothing. I still have some strength! Granted, I have lost a lot but I hope to get it back quickly once I am back to Barwis.
I thought about the fun I would have standing with Adam and the fact that Larry remembered it with fondness also, made me all the more happy! All the work I did at Barwis seems like a distant memory I hope to go back there soon; but in the meantime, I will just *BINK* at ATI!