11.23.16 Nerves

I worked with Kristen on the Wednesday after my MRI. I told her all about the music and being  transported back to my high school years. I told her that I was really happy that they were able to keep my  knee taped  while I had the MRI.   The MRI tech gave me a disc but did not tell me about anything that she saw. I told Kristen how nervous I am about surgery. My knee still hurts so very badly! I  can’t really imagine me NOT  needing surgery because this really hurts!

I couldn’t tell Kristen enough about how my nerves were going crazy!   I know that whatever is wrong with my knee is wrong with my knee and there is nothing I can do now but it still made me crazy nervous!  As my return appointment with Dr. Frush  gets closer, I am getting more nervous because my knee is not feeling any better. I’m so concerned!

She worked my knee and my quad as we talked. She told me that I am doing everything I can do to make my knee feel better (physical therapy three times a week and the MRI) so I just have to wait  and see what he says. I know that all of this is true but I can’t seem to get my nerves in check!    I think this is because I know how much my knee hurts and how long it has been hurting but I also know that any kind of knee surgery to make that pain go away will be the most pain I have ever been in in my life  because it was just that! It has been 16 years since I had my knee surgery and I cannot forget how badly that hurt!

Just before Kristen hooked me up to the stim machine and iced me, she asked me if I preferred the tape that Luba I had put on me on Friday opposed to the stars. I told  her  that it really didn’t matter and ANY tape feels so good on my knee!  She ended up putting  a star on the outside of my knee because that is where it really hurts!