11.20.15 Standing Tall

I worked with Mike on Friday.  We worked on the last black table.  We did all of our normal PNFs and then Mike said we would work on standing.  I inched to the edge of the table as he pulled my ankles the rest of they way.  I closed my eyes and activated all the muscles that ALL of my trainers have told me to and I was standing tall!  My back was straight and I was standing!  Mike was impressed and I stood tall for what Mike told me was “at least 1/2 a song.”  I wish I knew what song was playing but I didn’t.  I was so busy concentrating on keeping my muscles firing that I wasn’t aware iof the music.  After my knees bent and Mike helped me back on the table I was just too tired to really listen.

Mike had us move over to right in front of the mirror so I could see myself stand.  I didn’t dig that because I could see how ENORMOUS my butt was when I stood.  Standing got difficult and the stander was nearby.  I told Mike that this stander kind of looked like the stander I used with Adam but it had a tray in front of it like it was a high chair.  He told me that this stander used to have a tray on it but they took it off so this was the same stander.  He adjusted the feet rests so the stander would hold my knees in place while I stood.  My legs are pretty short.  Well, I’m pretty short so Mike raised the foot petals so it would hold my knees in place.

i vaguely remember Phil adjusting the petals the same way.  Once I was in the stander, instead of cranking it up as Phil used to, Mike had me standup on my own.  This was progress!  It was difficult to stand in the stander so I eventually I sat down to rest.  Mike told me that we’d figure it out and put his arms out to help me out of the stander.  I grabbed his arms and stepped out of the stander.  I stood up straight just as my Mom came into the gym from talking with Elle.  She got to see me standing tall.  It felt good to have her witness my progress.  It may be slow but it’s steady!

11.18.15 “Wacky Sock Wedneesday” #36

I worked with Sue on Wednesday and we started with the normal PNFs as we always do.  She’s added a new stretch.  I’ve done it a few times and I’m not very good at it.  I’ve explained to Sue that I am getting stronger standing.  I feel really sturdy on my feet and that feels really good but once I am standing after using my quads to stand and I am up tall;  I don’t know what to do.  I can’t move or shift my weight at all.  She explained to me which muscles I would need to activate to pivot and shift my weight to transfer onto the table from my chair.  These are the same muscles I would need to use when I am walking.

Well, no wonder I’m bad at it!  This stretch has me activate a small muscle group on the insides of my legs.  I need to push my leg in on a diagonal and on the next set, push them out on that same diagonal.  These movements are particularly difficult and Sue explains that using my quads or even my hamstrings to push or pull in a straight movement is much easier.  THAT is SO true!  I think I did two sets of like 5 on each leg both pushing and pulling and it felt like a MILLION.  I think it’s the diagonal part that makes it SO difficult!

i look forward to the day that these movements will become easy for me but that day was not here yet and I was EXHAUSTED!!!  My legs felt like Jell-O and it was difficult to even stand to transfer to my chair.  I had to just sit for a minute.  Sue told me that my legs felt looser than they did on Monday so that encouraged me.  It was a bit discouraging however, how difficult this new stretch was for me.  I sat in my chair absolutely still because I was SO tired!  It was “Wacky Sock Wednesday” #36 and I didn’t even take a picture of my socks!  I had my Mom take this picture because I couldn’t move because I was so tired.  My ankles were a little bit swollen.

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All-Time Christmas Faves 2015

It’s about that time and STILL TOTALLY is NOT Christmas without these tunes!!!

“Last Christmas” Wham!

“I Want a Hippopotamus for Christmas”   Gayla Peevey

“Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas” Judy Garland

“Merry Christmas, Darling” Karen Carpenter

“All I Want For Christmas Is You” Mariah Carey

Feliz Navidad” Jose Feliciano – DUH!

“Christmas Shoes” Alabama

“Shake Up Christmas” Train

“Mary, Did You Know?” Cee Lo Green

“Please Come Home for Christmas” Bon Jovi

“O, Holy Night” Jon Secada

“River” Sarah McLachlan – Parker digs this one so I do now too.

“”Baby, Please Come Home” U2

Added these songs in 2014:

“Underneath The Tree”  Kelly Clarkson

“Do They Know It’s Christmas?”  Band Aid

 “God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen/We Three Kings”   Barenaked Ladies Feat. Sarah McLachlan

My Mom played this one for me on Veteran’s Day this year.  I’ve heard it before but… I cried.

The Soldier’s Christmas Poem

Feature/Profile

So, my cousin, Ariel (the same one who drove me to Barwis) is in college and she is a GREAT writer and an honor student.  She wrote about me for one of her classes.  I was not only flattered that she chose to write about me, but I was so pleased with what she wrote… WOW!!!!

Check it out:

Ariel Guevara
JOUR 131
Dr. Kim
Fall 2015
Feature/Profile

Who: Jennifer Rios

What: A single mother and Detroit English teacher living with MS.

Why: To inform readers about MS and to spread awareness about the need for ADA regulations to be upgraded.

How: An interview with her.

Significance: Jennifer is a single mother and a teacher who inspires others with her ability to cope with her illness and succeed despite it. She hopes to spread awareness about the failings of the ADA to truly make the world more accessible for people with disabilities.

Sources:

Rios, Jennifer. “Not Spinning My Wheels.” Not Spinning My Wheels. N.p., n.d. Web. 14 Nov. 2015. <http://notspinningmywheels.com/>.

“What Is MS?” National Multiple Sclerosis Society. N.p., n.d. Web. 14 Nov. 2015. <http://www.nationalmssociety.org/What-is-MS>.

Disabled People Matter Too

“You have MS. You’re going to go blind and then you’re going to die.” This is how a doctor broke the news to Jennifer Rios who was only 18 when she found out she had been diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis (MS). To that doctor, Jennifer says, “I’m not dead yet!” In fact, she is far from dead. Despite having what she calls “a really mean disease,” Jennifer  is raising her son by herself, teaching struggling students to read, and working on gaining the strength to walk again.

According to the National Multiple Sclerosis Society, Multiple Sclerosis is a disease that disrupts the flow of information between the brain and the body. Essentially, those living with MS lose the ability to control their own bodies. Jennifer’s MS has mostly affected her legs, leaving her wheelchair-bound. “It’s definitely not something I would wish on my worst enemy,” says Jennifer who goes on to describe the near constant pain she experiences and a numbness in her legs that she can’t quite find the words to explain.  “This really hurts,” Jennifer admits, although she says she tries not to acknowledge the pain because  she has other things to do and can’t afford to dwell on it.

Jennifer is often told that she is inspirational by people who marvel at her ability to persevere and  continue working through her disease, but she doesn’t see it that way. For her, living with MS is not something she does to inspire others; she does it because she has to. “I have a son who’s in eighth grade and I still have to get through the high school years! Not working is not an option.” She adds that her MS is both an afterthought and a forethought in that she has things she has to accomplish outside of coping with the disease though it affects every part of her life.  “It’s gonna hurt whether I’m at home or I’m at work, so I might as well be getting paid for it!” Jennifer describes her disease as an obstacle that she has no other choice but to work around.

When it comes to her work, Jennifer is dedicated teacher. As the Reading Specialist at the Cesar Chavez Middle School in Detroit, MI, she often works from the ground up, teaching struggling students to read. Before she can do that, though, she has to make it to work and even that requires a lot of effort. When describing a typical work day, Jennifer says that she starts getting ready at about 4:15 a.m.  when her mom arrives at her house to help her out of bed and into the bathroom which is not accessible.  “My house was built in 1951, and in 1951, people in wheelchairs didn’t own houses or live by themselves,” Jennifer laughs.  The process after she gets into the bathroom takes almost two hours. “My hair is still wet, I have my clothes on, and I am officially tired at 6:30.” Still, Jennifer travels from Dearborn to southwest Detroit five days a week, teaches until school lets out, and then grades papers while waiting for her mom to pick her back up.

To her students, Jennifer expresses a great deal of gratitude. “They’re really understanding,” she says. “I have never struggled with the door in 11 years because the kids always open it for me.” Jennifer even adds that her MS helps her students relate to her even though they don’t deal with the same struggles that she does. “I think it humanizes me to them,” she says and adds that her students feel less vulnerable about their inability to read when they’re working with a person who has visible disabilities. “I love giving them the ability to read […] That’s really cool.” For Jennifer, the silver lining to her situation is that it hasn’t hindered her ability to do her job. As she says, “You can teach a kid to read from a wheelchair.” She does explain that there have been plenty of awkwardly funny situations stemming from mishaps with students. “Every year probably about four or five sixth graders end up in my lap because they’re running and not paying attention in the halls and they run right into me and I catch them. They’re so apologetic […] and they just kind of laugh that embarrassed laugh.” She also admits that she has accidentally run over her fair share of toes.

Jennifer also has a strong relationship with her son, Sean. She decided she wanted a child immediately after finding out that she had MS, remembering that her mother’s coworker had MS and couldn’t have children because of her deteriorating condition. “I always knew I needed to be a mother, probably because my mom’s the best in the world,” Jennifer recalls. She says she wanted to have a baby before she could get to that point. She was 18 when she said, “‘I’m gonna have a baby,” and she was 19 when she gave birth to her son.  When describing her relationship with Sean, Jennifer smiles and says, “We’re a team.”

When asked if Americans with Disabilities Act (ADA) regulations are effective enough, Jennifer replies that they’re not. Though she says they have come a long way, she thinks there are still ways in which our society can be more inclusive towards people with disabilities.  “Accessibility is just a list that contractors are checking off,” says Jennifer who finds the most problems with public restrooms. Of contractors again, she says, “[…] They don’t think about a person who does not have control of their body having to use the public restroom.” The sinks are usually so high that she has to lift her arms until her elbows are at her ears, just to wash her hands. Even simple things like a garbage can too close to the door can become a new challenge for a person in a wheelchair. Another thing that bothers her is when she finds a baby changing station inside the only extra-wide stall. “What if there’s a baby who really needs a diaper changed and a disabled person? Who takes priority?” Jennifer asserts that disabled people need to be made contracting consultants when building plans are being made so that situations like that don’t happen. Jennifer says that someone in a wheelchair would know to make a door wide enough for them to fit through even when their elbows are out because they have to wheel themselves.

There are local businesses that are extremely considerate towards the struggles of disabled people. Jennifer mentions a local Potbelly that has gone above and beyond to make going out a little easier for them.   The one she talks about features a special, shortened counter that she can roll right up to and ring a bell to let employees know that she’s there. The same store even has a special way of stocking drinks in the coolers so that they resemble a palindrome which makes it easy for disabled people to get to them. “Everything that’s on the top shelf is also on the bottom shelf,” meaning that people in wheelchairs can grab any drink they want for themselves without having to ask someone else to get it for them. Jennifer particularly loves that the restaurant has handicap seating where one side of the table is completely open so that she can sit there comfortably with her son. These considerations are proof that public places can be made to accommodate people with disabilities.

As for herself, Jennifer remains optimistic. She works with trainers up to three days a week to stretch and exercise the muscles in her legs, and she keeps others up to date on her progress by sharing her experiences on her blog, Not Spinning My Wheels.  Jennifer says of her progress, “… All the work I’m doing at Barwis, my legs are slowly waking up. I’m slowly gaining control of my muscles. You know, I can wiggle my toes.”

 

11.16.15 NOT Lost

I worked with Sue Monday and she took me a little early because I got there early.  My legs were SO tight that I couldn’t even bend them!  I wasn’t on the schedule last week at all and I FELT it!  Sue did too.  She REALLY worked me hard.  I was afraid that not being on the schedule (that hamstring tear REALLY stunk!) would make me lose some of the progress I’ve recently felt that I’ve been making.  As Sue worked me and my legs gradually loosened, I kept exclaiming that, “It’s NOT lost!” as my legs started doing what Sue told them to do.

The PNFs were strong and that made me happy.  After Sue stretched me out, it was apparent that I hadn’t lost the strength and control that I slowly have been gaining.  I was working HARD and that was apparent to me when I could feel the bile rising in my throat.  I remembered Adam telling me that it was a good thing if I threw up.  It means that I have pushed my body THAT hard. GROSS! I remembered Mike Rhoades telling me that PNFs were working and I didn’t really believe him.  Then, I thought of my days of teaching English and teaching the book, The Outsiders because I was chewing my gum hard (just like Cherry Valance did when she met Dally).  She did it because she was mad but I did it because I was trying to keep getting sick at bay.  Random things that I have kept in my head over 11 years of teaching.

My time was just about over and my legs felt SO relaxed and I knew that I would sleep well.  It felt good to be at Barwis after what seemed like a LONG absence from it.  I can’t wait until I can feel this loose all the time.  Seems that when I’m walking, I wont get so stiff.  That’s what I am working toward.

11.2.15 The Human Shuttle

It was Sean’s 14th birthday but he of all people knows first-hand how IMPERATIVE it is that I go to Barwis.  It was the only time I was scheduled for that week so I HAD to go!  I worked with Sue on a black table.  We started with the PNFs I always do.  This time Sue added a different PNF.  I laid on my back and instead of me pushing my leg straight out (which I am getting pretty good at!), she turned my foot in and left my knee straight.  I needed to push my foot out.  It felt extremely strange and Sue had to talk me through it and touch the spots in my legs and hips where I needed to use.  It was DIFFICULT and it made my butt and outside of my hips ache from overuse because I NEVER use those muscles.

Sue explained to me that this stretch will help me with pivoting and changing direction when I stand or walk.  Standing up from my chair has become A LOT easier for me but I don’t know what to do after that.  I just smile once I am standing straight up with my weight evenly distributed on my feet and tell whomever I am working with that day that I don’t know what to do and have them help me to the table.  I don’t feel upset anymore that nowadays my time at Barwis is largely comprised of stretching and PNFs because NOW I understand that all of these PNFs ARE getting my muscles stronger.  It’s a piecemeal.  I’m activating different muscles one-by-one in isolation and when I will put all the activated muscles together, I will walk.

Sue looked over to the shuttle and then at her phone.  She told me that we would not have time to go over to the shuttle so instead she was going to be the human shuttle and mimic the movements I would need to do as if I was on the shuttle and she would offer the resistance like the shuttle did.  I liked this because it was a movement I was familiar with and am getting kind of GOOD at!  My legs proved to be pretty Jell-O-y as I tried to stand to transfer back to my chair so Sue had to help out a lot.  Once in my chair, my legs felt looser and warm. I LOVE that feeling and I was satisfied and knew that I worked extremely hard.

10.28.15 “Wacky Sock Wednesday” #35 OR A.R. #4

I was scheduled to work with Sue but it changed to Megan.  We worked on the furthest black table.  Megan explained to me that Sue had to leave so she took me.  I was cool with that!  It was “Wacky Sock Wednesday!”  I wasn’t at Barwis for the last “Wacky Sock Wednesday” so this one was #35.  As I got to the table after Megan told me that I as working with her; I said, “First thing’s first” as I handed her my phone to take a picture of our socks:

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I wore the green and white stripes because she grew up in Lansing.  (NOT because I’m a State fan!) She wore the “raining cats and dogs” because it WAS raining “cats and dogs!”  We did my normal PNFs which feel A LOT stronger and then she asked me if I wanted to stand or work on core.  It WAS raining so I opted to work on my core because my legs were stiff and ached more than they normally do because of the barometric pressure.

Working my core made this “A.R. #4.”  I sat on the edge of the table and I used the yellow and black 6 lb. medicine ball.  I like that one the best and look forward to the day that turning my shoulders, pivoting my waist, and extending the ball up and outward is easy.  That day is NOT here yet so Megan told me specifically how I need to move my body and which muscles I need to tense.  I TRIED but it ends too many times with me falling over and Megan catching me so I don’t fall off of the table.  I attempted these extensions for what seemed like a million times on each side.  My sides burned!  Yep.  This was DEFINITELY A.R. #4!!!

 

10.23.15 A Book Signing OR A.R. #3

I didn’t go to Barwis on Wednesday (still working out the scheduling) but I was able to go on Friday but I went at 7.  I got there a little bit early so I saw Chris and Emily leaving.  I smiled at them and asked how book sales were going and asked how I could get one.  Emily told me that they had some in the van and she can grab me one.  I was so excited!!!  I’d never had gotten a book from the author before!  He even signed it for me!!!

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I had never been to a book signing… Until now!!!  I hugged the book to my chest and was excited to read it!  Chris wished me a good workout and I was ELATED!!!  The gym slowly got quiet because I was not the only client working out.  Megan was somewhere on the other side of the gym so I couldn’t see her.

I went to the first black table and my Mom sat on the blue table next to me.  Mike asked what we wanted to listen to.  My Mom chose Fleetwood Mac.  I could dig that.  Mike and I did our normal PNFs.  Then we worked on my core.  It was A.R. #3.  We did all kinds of exercises using different core muscle groups.  I felt productive doing these and have noticed that I am sitting up taller in my chair so it seems to be helping.  We drove home with my sides aching but it was a GOOD ache.

I was excited to show Sean my book!  I showed many colleagues at work on Monday and anticipated getting through the book quickly.  NOT the case!  I’ve since seen Chris and he asked how I liked it.  I told him that I LOVE it but I’m not finished because keep having to stop because I’m crying,and crying, and crying but it is SO GOOD!!!

The Power of Faith When Tragedy Strikes by Chris and Terry Norton

SO, SO, SO GOOD!!!

10.19.15 Momentum

I worked with Sue on the lack table Monday (I like that one the best I think).  My legs were a bit tight but Sue methodically stretched them out so they relaxed and we began PNFs.  I am pleased with the progress I see in doing these PNFs.  When Sue tells me to “push” or “pull” (depending on if I am laying on my back or stomach), I can feel the muscles activating and I am telling my legs to move and they ACTUALLY listen.

I still only do sets of like 5 or 6 but it feels like 500!  My right leg is STILL stronger than my left after my hamstring tear.  It’s kind of weird that the leg that used to be my, “poop leg” is the stronger of the two.  I probably only did two or three sets of five but it FEELS like I’m doing so many!  As I completed the reps alternating legs, I felt as if I was gaining momentum and it was exhilarating!  Now, after I saw the acupuncturist in Florida 9 years ago.  I was able to wiggle my toes.  I was unable to wiggle them since my diagnosis 7 years earlier. I really feel like I am wiggling them quickly but I recently saw how LITTLE they wiggle when I think I’m wiggling them a lot.

I don’t see my legs move when I’m laying on my stomach and my eyes are closed most of the time I am laying on my back to help me concentrate but I feel the muscles activating, they slowly gain momentum and that is exciting!  I’m not sure how it looks and it probably is as pitiful as wiggling my toes but – it’s movement.  Movement that I had once lost.  Now, I’m getting it back.  Slowly; but its gaining momentum and that is EXCITING!!!

Da

So, I have been without my car radio for so long that random songs will just pop up into my head.  As I was just about to fall asleep last night, I thought of this one.  I saw U2 live with my brother and a few other colleagues.  I saw them perform this song but that was when MY DAD was still alive.  It’s different for me now.  I used to drive to work and listen to this song in the months just after he died and I used to ball the whole way to work.  I’d wear my sunglasses into the building even though it was before daylight savings time and it was still pitch black outside.

I listened to this song a few times last night and cried EVERY time.  I still do now.  Because I was Irish in my past life, I guess I used to call him “Da” too.  I always called my dad, “Daddy” but I guess it really doesn’t matter…

“Sometimes You Can’t Make It on Your Own”  U2