Superstition

On Wednesday, I texted my Mom before I started work at Barwis.  I told her of the debacle I was facing in light of my series of unfortunate events because I did not have my chapstick AND my water bottle broke.  She sent back this text:

“God is with you!  Chapstick is a superstition.  If it means that much to you, you have Adam who is a wonderful trainer!  You have Barwis that is a great place to be.  I’m sorry for the messy trouble.  Did anything get ruined?”

When I read this text, I could feel tears stinging the back of my eyes and I quickly put my phone in the front pocket of my  hoodie.  I took a few deep breaths and willed myself NOT to cry.  I was SUPER bummed that my mojo was off and moms (at least MY Mom) have that effect on people.  Just hearing her voice (or reading her words in this case) could put me over the edge emotionally and I would cry.

Then she sent, “I’m sorry.”  and then “Did you start your routine yet?”

Oh Man!  This was getting a bit too much!  I could feel the tears even closer.  I texted back, “Starting now.”  so I could take the next few moments to gather myself before I started to work.

Yesterday, Kimmy sent me this text:

“So you know that saying superstitions are only crazy if they don’t work?  Does that mean your chapstick and water are crazy superstitions/routines hahahaha.  Maybe it was just God telling you “I got you!”  No one can throw your mojo off besides God.”

I didn’t respond to this text only thought about it long and hard.  Yes, I knew that saying.  Those Bud Light commercials are my FAVE!

I saw this one LAST football season.  It is TOTALLY me!!!

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Then there’s these commercials I saw this year and they also are TOTALLY me!!!

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  “Quinoa”

It’s pronounced kEEn-wah even though I think it should be kin-OH-wah. 

   “Basement”
I used to be afraid of scary basements.  Sean and I LOVE this one!
  “Ramsey”
Is it REALLY worth it?
 “Jukebox”
Something I would COMPLETELY do!!!  I kinda do.  Now, Gavin DeGraw plays when I get to AND leave Barwis, regardless of how I do.
People used to (and still do) marvel at the things I can do in spite of being in a wheelchair.  I never did/do think that I am doing anything extraordinary.  I just do what I have to do.  I try not to think about how hard some things are.  And at times they are EXTREMELY hard!   I always used to say that “God does not give you MORE than you can handle.”  But then, I would add “but He is GROSSLY overestimating me!”  I used to believe that.  I have since amended that thinking.  Both my Mom and Kimmy were correct.  God’s got me.  It’ll be cool.  He doesn’t overestimate me and knows that my story will end beautifully.  It’s just not the end yet.  I AM still waiting for it to get better but I think I am able to do things that people think may be extraordinary because He DOES indeed got me.  Does doing all of these superstitious/routine things usurp Him?  I don’t think so and that is good because I still do NOT have my chapstick nor did I bring an extra bottle of water to take to Barwis just in case…

One thought on “Superstition”

  1. Jen..wow..absolutely a beautiful blog! I can also hear your mother’s kind words! She is no doubt a super human being! A real gift from God. You know how He looks out for her. With that, you are her child and so therefore no matter what you think about superstitions, He will always be there for you! Chapstick or no Chapstick, extra water or not, He is wheeling right beside you!

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