I did not feel well today before I went to training. Both of my legs felt really tight. I found it difficult to stay asleep last night. I woke up to my legs hurting repeatedly throughout the night, my right leg more than my left leg. It’s not a cool feeling for your body to hurt so badly and to know that there really is no possible way to escape it. When I got into Barwis, Phil asked how I was feeling. I told him to just “break the ice off” of my right knee and then I would do really well. He stretched out my right leg as I sat in my chair then we made our way to the Keiser machine. I did a few quarter squats and some stands. I *BINK*ed a few times. I didn’t feel GREAT about my performance today but it was better than what I did on Friday.
I talked with my cousin Kimmy last Saturday. We talked about how our bodies (she has MS too) can not process sugar properly. It kind of stinks because it’s not like I am drinking syrup or eating spoonfuls of sugar but the little bit of sugar I have allowed myself to have this Christmas break is really effecting me. I haven’t had sugar in two years and I guess I was feeling a little weak this holiday season. But I am paying for it now. That is what it has to be. My legs haven’t hurt like this in a very long time!
We did some leg curls and leg extensions after we left the Keiser machine. Eric sat next to me on the table and we talked about football and the upcoming playoffs. I did not feel as if I “rocked the casbah” at training today but it was better than nothing. I had a lot of realizations today (sugar is REALLY NOT my friend and that stinks!) but I said in my interview with Connor back in July that I would “do anything to walk” and if not having sugar anymore is what I need to do I will do it. I just needed to test it out a little bit. I will get ready for my next “Walking Wednesday” which will not be until the 8th of January. It will be a brand new year. The year I regain my ability to walk! Things will be good! …as long as a don’t have any sugar.