11.16.16 Reiterated Concern OR Game Plan

Wednesday, I was with Kristen.  She pulled my tape off as I reiterated my growing concern for my knee to her.  After telling Brad about my Dr. Frush appointment, I haven’t been able to STOP thinking about it.  I thought about how both Dr. K AND Dr. Frush poked my knee in the EXACT SAME spots.  It hurt in EVERY spot they poked and I told both of them that.  I told her about Dr. Frush’s look of concern at seeing that my knee was more swollen than it should be as she methodically rubbed my knee.

I told her that my MRI was scheduled for November 21st and my return appointment was set for November 28th.  I told her about Dr. Frush letting me know that my return to work was, “tentative.”  After telling her all of this, I felt that I adequately reiterated my concern.  I told her that I felt Dr. Frush knew something.  He knows what he’s talking about.  I really felt that something is wrong with knee.  I was nervous now.  My knee has NOT stopped hurting since I was injured.

As Kristen worked my knee, she said that maybe Dr. Frush was covering his bases just in case.  Then she told me that I am doing everything I can.  I’m going to physical therapy, I’ve made both my MRI appointment and my follow-up appointment with Dr. Frush after the MRI.  She told me that I have a game plan.  Whatever is wrong with my knee, is wrong with my knee.  Until I know for sure, I’m doing everything right.

As I got hooked up to stim. and had my ice on, I thought about how this knee injury is just about breaking me.  I’m not at work teaching kids to read and dealing with worker’s comp. payments is more than taxing, not to mention that I’m NOT at Barwis.  I miss it more than ANYTHING!!!  With all of this going on, I’m STILL in pain!  I wake up in pain and go to sleep in pain.  Oh yeah, AND I have MS!

The timer went off for my stim. and Kristen and I decided that she wouldn’t tape me today so I can get tape tomorrow.  I’d have it for the weekend and I’ll remove it before my MRI on Monday.  I cancelled my ATI appointment for Monday because I will be getting my MRI.  Kristen snapped my pants and her and my Mom helped transfer me back to my chair.  Man, this ALL is A LOT! ???